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old insecurities have started playing up. A little.
Arguing for no reason. Self destruction. Explode.

Not as bad as I could be years and years ago. Once I was scary. Can you imagine?! But he didn't deserve that freak out. He treats me well.

I just feel like my life has no direction right now. No job or idea about what to do. \I'm sure things will work out but i am slightly on edge. it's understandable but doesn't give me the right to freak out. Not after such a nice evening. Plus it really doesn't make me feel better, it serves no purpose other than making me feel regret and self pity followed by self loathing. I stormed off and now am alone at home, feeling sad. Too much pride to call. Bleh

On a lighter note, who likes the Mentalist? I love Patrick Jane to death, but season 2 is so far lacking the intelligence and humor of season 1.

It's cold. Winter is coming.

I have toothache.

My cat is staying at his house, because I spend so much time there recently. So no cuddles here at all.

OOOohhh I will call him. xoxo