franpire

Ok, well aware that this is going to sound arrogant. But hell it's my blog and I'll write whatever I'm feeling.

It aint all that being what some people I guess would consider pretty. In fact some days I think being attractive is a curse. The amount of really good friendships with guys that have become over complicated and ended up breaking down because they end up fancying me is really starting to get to me. No matter how clear and open I am about my feelings- to the point even that I'm getting paranoid "have I been clear enough","am I leading him on", "Is it ok to give him a hug-if it was a girl I would"

Now this good friend of min is sad-and I'm sooo fucking sad he's sad. I really liked him, I don't want him to be hurt-but I can't give him what he wants either. Maybe I should never speak to a man again until I'm old and what some people consider ugly. It would save me a lot of pain too.