frankystein

does anyone else think that bedroom sets are too overplayed? i've become so fucking sick of seeing them. WE NEED TO BE MORE ORIGINAL PEOPLE! it's like new horror movies...compared to the old ones, THEY SUCK! they all have the same concept, and ending. ooo like you don't know what the fuck is gunna happen... that's why i'm creating a new style of sets and a new horror film. no no no, not together, even though that would be pretty cool! but no, i won't be doing that. this is my rantemous blog here. i've played too much katamari...cause now i'm kinda talking like the king. damn it.

so today, my best friend that i've known forever calls me, and she asks me if i'll go to the hospital with her. the thing is, our senior year of high school, she had a stroke...at 18 yrs old, she had a stroke...anyway a few months later, she was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis. and that's been almost 4 years since that. and she's now 5 months pregnant with a girl. yesterday, she decided to walk home from work, instead of calling me...cause she knows i'll do anything to help her...and she happened to fall and kinda badly hurt herself...skinned up her knee, twisted her ankle, you know those kindsa falls you had when you were a kid and got up and brushed yourself off and kept going? well...her's didn't happen that way. she called her doctor, and they told her to go to the ER, so she asked me to take her tonight and i did. the doc at the hospital told her that it was her MS acting up, and she needed to start using a cane, and that she had to quit working. he also said, that by the end of her pregnancy, she'd probably be in a wheelchair. that's just something that a 22 year old girl shouldn't have to go through. i mean fuck, look at MONTELL...he's had MS for how long now and he's still functioning fine and he's like 40...she's fucking 22 years old...by the time she hits 40 she's going to be a fucking vegetable. not able to do anything for herself, fed through a tube...and this pisses me off because she's my best friend. no one really deserves what she's going through. ugh!

anyway...on another note...i know this is long, but i need someone to talk to about it, and a few of you actually listen...ok...read this stuff...my boyfriend asked me the other night to stop talking about my ex bf...which bothers me because i need to get him out of my head, and if no one will listen to me, then he'll never go away. all the pain he dealt me will be stuck in my heart and eventually, it will kill me. i don't think anyone really understand anything he did to me, and i don't think i'll ever begin to be able to explain what he's done to me. and because of him, i feel like i'm worthless. which i really...probably am...