So, I've finally grown my lady balls and decided to become a SG Hopeful! I've wanted to do this for so long but just didn't want to take that step where everyone you know can see you naked on the internet.. until I decided to stop caring about impressing anyone else and to concentrate on how I feel about myself.
I think there are two sides to me, one is "normal", your average 23 year old woman, worked the 9-5 life, settled down in a house full of cats and the other is the complete opposite, my inner child who refuses to grow up. I want to play games all day and have fun and travel and just do something! I'm sure that everyone thinks this way from time to time, and sure people will tell me to grow up, that I'm not good enough or pretty enough or interesting enough for this sorta thing but y'know what.. let their negativity feed your desire to better yourself, let them give you the push into changing your life, because there is nothing more satisfying than saying "I told you so" to everyone who said you couldn't in the beginning, right?
It's taken me a little while to write this, I've tried to keep everything as 100% real and open as I can because this is kinda a huge deal, because as much as I say "pfft, I wear less clothes on a beach" or "loads of girls are practically nude in their photos now anyway" having my set done and posted for the world to see does scare me fuck outta me so really this is my way of saying this is me, flaws n'all, saying "I'm doing this because I want to, because it makes me feel good about myself, because I'm proud of who I am, my character and morals so why should society tell me I can't?"
I'm in this for the full journey now and if anyone wants to help me on my mission of self truths then I'm listening. Thanks for reading this long and probably super waffley post about me and why I want to be a fully fledged Suicide Girl, look out for my upcoming set and hopefully there's a lot more to be heard from me!
-Effy <3
