Last week, I got some more Air Jordans, which on surface isn't a bad thing, but I definitely have more pairs of shoes than most people. It got me wondering why I buy so many shoes. As it turns out, spending can be a sign of loneliness and depression. I think I am using the dopamine hit from buying stuff as a way to cope with those feelings. My stock response to anyone who bring up the fact I am always out doing stuff is to say there isn't anyone waiting for me at home. Consciously, I view it as accepting things as they and not living as I wish they would be, but maybe it it bothering me more than I realize on an unconscious level. It is time for me to think about this long and hard; my closet is starting to get full of shoeboxes.