It's been a while since my last blog, but shit eh.
I had my final review for work today, basically had someone following me around all day checkin out how i do what i do. Don't think it went too badly, but im definately not going to be pre empting any decisions.
My extended probation period ends on the 20th, and I have a meeting... Read More
Instituted somechanges in my life. Cutting down drinking, way less caffeine, amongst other things. Sick of being a sad sack piece of shit. I've been doing ok.
But tonight I feel like shit and want to get wasted as fuck. Seriously wasted as fuck.
Grrrr.
Why do iI have to be constantly trying to fuck myself up?
I don't know what it is,b ut I wake up and I feel sad, then I realise how lame that is, which makes me sadder. Then I go to work, which honestly I fucking hate at the moment, then I get drunk. I don't like my life.
I don't refer to this as though its an external thing, I... Read More
totally understand the feeling down cycle... do what the first guy suggested... sit out in the sun for a while... that sometimes makes things better... hope it gets better. go out and see a movie... it feels kind of lame going by yourself, but sometimes it feels good to be able to do things by yourself and make being alone or whatever, not feel so lonely ... if that makes sense
So ive tried going to chat, triedcommenting people, but so far im pretty unimpressed by the 'friendliness' of people on this site. My profile may not be the most intereseting, but if people werent judgemental fucks they may take part in some conversation and find out I'm actually mildly interesting.
Fuck off then you say? Well I stay cos this is the onlyway i stay... Read More
mm ive tried chat but im mostly ignored in there too, i think its best to just find a few ppl u connect with...ur lucky u get to live in australia!!! a few of my friends r going down in nov i believe to work part time n live there!!if i wasnt in school still i'd go..hows life down under???
Excerps from a conversation I had with a friend. Was a good conversation, made me think, so I'll put it down here, saves me retyping all that was said.
fuck man
i hate how i sexualise friendships with girls
like
any time i have a nicechat where i connect with a chick
it always turns into aneed to like get sexual....not gratificationbut like....
Tomorrow is my assessment for work, shitting myself.
Thursda is my b'day tho, so hopefully people are extra nice and I get hugs.
How do I go about socialising on this site? NO one seems to be interested in regular contact. Is my profile too boring? I guess I'm stuck between hating trying to sum up myself on a computer, ad wanting to meet new... Read More
What a weekend. Nearly got arrested, got overly drunk and emotional, hung out with a cute girl, saw Jeff Lang rip it upon guitar like nothing I've ever seen. Lucky it's a three day weekend or I think I'd be well and truly stuffed.
Think I kinda need to heads down for a bit. I think I kind of need a bit of a spiritual... Read More