Thanks for all the encouraging words for my emo "I have only one set" blog 
I'm sorry for being such a downer.
This blog entry isn't much better haha.
I just got off the phone with my mom and gosh she just makes me feel wonderful about myself. No no that wasn't sarcasm at all silly!!
Really though, I thought parents were supposed to be there when you can't quite carry yourself through life. I didn't mean to get behind on my phone bill. It just happens sometimes. Things come up (car repairs and such) that can't be helped. So I say hey guys, could I borrow a little cash to get by?? I'd like to be able to buy some groceries maybe. And borrow means I'll pay ya back also right?? So when I finally get paid again and I start paying back a little at a time per agreement, why do you call me and give me a guilt trip??? And expect me to not be upset by it?? Does it entertain you to make me feel like shit??? I;m pretty sure you get off on it.
My mom asked me why we can never have a normal conversation today. I wanted to say "well you're not normal." Don't get me wrong, I love the woman that gave me life. But for fucks sake stop making me feel guilty for it.
I'm just gonna give the rest of my paycheck to her, who needs extra grocery money really? I just don't want to be her reason for hating life this week.
It's sad, but she makes me not want to have kids. Although I know I would go out of my way to not make my kids feel this way, it's like I don't even want to take that chance.
I'm sorry for being such a downer.This blog entry isn't much better haha.
I just got off the phone with my mom and gosh she just makes me feel wonderful about myself. No no that wasn't sarcasm at all silly!!
Really though, I thought parents were supposed to be there when you can't quite carry yourself through life. I didn't mean to get behind on my phone bill. It just happens sometimes. Things come up (car repairs and such) that can't be helped. So I say hey guys, could I borrow a little cash to get by?? I'd like to be able to buy some groceries maybe. And borrow means I'll pay ya back also right?? So when I finally get paid again and I start paying back a little at a time per agreement, why do you call me and give me a guilt trip??? And expect me to not be upset by it?? Does it entertain you to make me feel like shit??? I;m pretty sure you get off on it.
My mom asked me why we can never have a normal conversation today. I wanted to say "well you're not normal." Don't get me wrong, I love the woman that gave me life. But for fucks sake stop making me feel guilty for it.
I'm just gonna give the rest of my paycheck to her, who needs extra grocery money really? I just don't want to be her reason for hating life this week.
It's sad, but she makes me not want to have kids. Although I know I would go out of my way to not make my kids feel this way, it's like I don't even want to take that chance.
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drama:
Yep I remember that feeling. Moms are tough...I think for me it was always the relationship with my Dad...maybe that's the way it works...daughters maybe have it tougher with mom
krisness:
Oh, I feel ya on the mom thing. Mine is the same way, and just last night I was like fuck! I'm never having kids if I have the possibility of making them feel like this. Nobody, especially parents should ever make you feel bad for having to borrow a little money, or anything else they feel the need to nag about and make you feel like shit for.