fraggle

i'm very ow today.

my friend "A" had his b-day saturday, and i am still in pain pain pain

i don't know why i'm so fragile about alchohol these days-- my whole body hurts-- yesterday i was damn unable to walk... i guess maybe i'm just out of practice with chemicals... i guess that can happen... even my throat is still way friggin sore from some other stuff that got into me that night but oy... i'm like unable to think or focus...

i've gotta drive over the grapevine this wednesday i've not been relishing the idea, even before i felt this crappy... maybe i'll wuss out and delay myself till thursday... or friday... oy, i usually wuss out and delay and delay that trip until the very last minute... but it's just soooo much comfier here... and easier to get actual food each day... you know, all the little things... maybe my body is reacting badly to having to be transported back to waste-land-town, and all the fucking assholes i'm so sick of down there...

ow my back hurts...