How fucking weird, tonight. A nice afternoon in the park turned into a walk in the rain, too much time at Tower Records, and then seeing an amazing band play.
A night sleeping in my car turned into hanging out with one of katie's friends at Katie's house while the family is away.
And I think taking antidepressants and going to bed is about to...
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A night sleeping in my car turned into hanging out with one of katie's friends at Katie's house while the family is away.
And I think taking antidepressants and going to bed is about to...
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So here's the plan: as soon as I've got the money to cover the next two months (an estimated $1000), I am leaving my job and spending November and December in MS, helping out.
If you aren't aware, the problems aren't over. It is going to take at least a year, maybe two, before people's homes are cleaned out or torn down, before downed trees...
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If you aren't aware, the problems aren't over. It is going to take at least a year, maybe two, before people's homes are cleaned out or torn down, before downed trees...
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I am away for such a short time, and I come back and Stormy's gone. What the fuck? I need my fix!
Anyway, moving on.
That's the theme.
It took me so long to get over The Girl. I mean, sure, technically she's been gone for only a month -- not so long, really. But the time when we were healthy for eachother ended a...
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Anyway, moving on.
That's the theme.
It took me so long to get over The Girl. I mean, sure, technically she's been gone for only a month -- not so long, really. But the time when we were healthy for eachother ended a...
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I swear this is an interesting post. It looks long, but it's not really.
So I saw a new psychiatrist today, and it was one of the best first sessions I've had.
From time to time, when I get manic and decide to actually do something about myself, I find a new therapist, and after the first session people ask me, How did it go?...
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So I saw a new psychiatrist today, and it was one of the best first sessions I've had.
From time to time, when I get manic and decide to actually do something about myself, I find a new therapist, and after the first session people ask me, How did it go?...
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This is fuckin' brilliant -- if by brilliant you mean sad.
http://www.thinkprogress.org/katrina-timeline
http://www.thinkprogress.org/katrina-timeline
So, I am going batty today. All day I have been overwhelmed by the thought of going down on a girl. I haven't done since January, and in my opinion that is a shame.
And it's extra frustrating because I'm staying alone in a hotel all this week... So not only am I not getting off with some girl. I'm also just plain alone.
What...
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And it's extra frustrating because I'm staying alone in a hotel all this week... So not only am I not getting off with some girl. I'm also just plain alone.
What...
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So it came down to this:
I went into work on Monday knowing that I would be killing myself during the three days off that were to follow. So instead of walking to my desk, I walked into the HR department and told them that I cannot work again anytime soon, and they gave me the paperwork to fax in to make me officially off...
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I went into work on Monday knowing that I would be killing myself during the three days off that were to follow. So instead of walking to my desk, I walked into the HR department and told them that I cannot work again anytime soon, and they gave me the paperwork to fax in to make me officially off...
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shmidol:
I hope everything is ok.
I hope everything is ok. 
fracturedguy:
And indeed it is! I was discharged today, and in seven hours I will begin "intensive outpatient" care, meaning I'll still be going to the hospital for the days, but will be free to leave for the night.
During this time I will be staying in a hotel local to the hospital for as long as I can afford to.
The time inside was well advised.. I still intended to kill myself well into Monday night, but as of today, anxiety may actually be the worst of my worries.
And the anxiety is still quite bad.. I may not be in mortal danger, but I am still socially inoperable.
Ah well, I have three weeks to work on that.
I am currently on two antideoressants and an antipsychotic.
During this time I will be staying in a hotel local to the hospital for as long as I can afford to.
The time inside was well advised.. I still intended to kill myself well into Monday night, but as of today, anxiety may actually be the worst of my worries.
And the anxiety is still quite bad.. I may not be in mortal danger, but I am still socially inoperable.
Ah well, I have three weeks to work on that.
I am currently on two antideoressants and an antipsychotic.
What Happened Next:
Sorry I feel the need to bitch about this so much, but I am keeping optimistic, and I do need at least one source of ventilation.
I do enjoy the fact that these recent stories have more good than harm in them. That is a personal rarity.
So yes, Yesterday, the day finding out about the disease.
I spent the day at...
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Sorry I feel the need to bitch about this so much, but I am keeping optimistic, and I do need at least one source of ventilation.
I do enjoy the fact that these recent stories have more good than harm in them. That is a personal rarity.
So yes, Yesterday, the day finding out about the disease.
I spent the day at...
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Life seems absurd sometimes, doesn't it?
Months ago, The Girl didn't understand why I got upset, when she called home to say she had mono. It wasn't that she had made out with some guy; it was that she was knowingly fooling with a guy that had been fooling around with all the other girls, and had something to show for it.
I wasn't upset...
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Months ago, The Girl didn't understand why I got upset, when she called home to say she had mono. It wasn't that she had made out with some guy; it was that she was knowingly fooling with a guy that had been fooling around with all the other girls, and had something to show for it.
I wasn't upset...
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elle:
Ick, dude, heartbreak and triumph all wrapped together in one... you'd feel much better about life if you bought yourself a mac.
And I say mac instead of iBook because for your needs, you'll need to invest in a PowerBook. They are decidedly more expensive but are for what you need. You can check online at the Apple Store. I would recommend bumping your memory up to 1gb (or at least 736mb) and having at least an 80gb harddrive (you might want to invest in an external harddrive, too, if you plan on having a ton of shit on there--that way you can transfer it to other macs etcetcetc).
The reason I recommend a PowerBook is because the processor is much faster. You're going to be running a lot of programs so your computer is going to need to be able to keep up with you. My 12" iBook only has a 1.33Ghz G4 processor, but since I'm only using it for mobile computing and schoolwork (Word, Powerpoint, etc.), it's totally, totally legitimate (I also have a ridiculous desktop with insane memory and harddrive space with the best processor I could [affordably] get, so that's why I went cheap-town on my iBook). It will probably run you at least $2000 (if not $2500) to get you the system you need. You'll want to buy AppleCare, and you'll have to buy FinalCutPro and MicroSoftWorks etcetc. It's an expensive business, but I've never been more e-happy.
And I say mac instead of iBook because for your needs, you'll need to invest in a PowerBook. They are decidedly more expensive but are for what you need. You can check online at the Apple Store. I would recommend bumping your memory up to 1gb (or at least 736mb) and having at least an 80gb harddrive (you might want to invest in an external harddrive, too, if you plan on having a ton of shit on there--that way you can transfer it to other macs etcetcetc).
The reason I recommend a PowerBook is because the processor is much faster. You're going to be running a lot of programs so your computer is going to need to be able to keep up with you. My 12" iBook only has a 1.33Ghz G4 processor, but since I'm only using it for mobile computing and schoolwork (Word, Powerpoint, etc.), it's totally, totally legitimate (I also have a ridiculous desktop with insane memory and harddrive space with the best processor I could [affordably] get, so that's why I went cheap-town on my iBook). It will probably run you at least $2000 (if not $2500) to get you the system you need. You'll want to buy AppleCare, and you'll have to buy FinalCutPro and MicroSoftWorks etcetc. It's an expensive business, but I've never been more e-happy.
Varla has the most amazing arm.
So in other news, yes, I am officially dumped. Sure, I broke it off first, in March, but in spite of words, I didn't really break away.
This marks the first time sombody has dumbed me in eleven years. Yeah, it hurts. My mind is slooowwwly coming around to reality. Ah well.
Our friend Johnny is visiting (yes, I...
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So in other news, yes, I am officially dumped. Sure, I broke it off first, in March, but in spite of words, I didn't really break away.
This marks the first time sombody has dumbed me in eleven years. Yeah, it hurts. My mind is slooowwwly coming around to reality. Ah well.
Our friend Johnny is visiting (yes, I...
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