fracturedguy

Hmmm. This is the part I like most:

And while I'm tempted to say you're being too hard on yourself with that list, I suppose that quote puts me in my place. You know better than I why you think your motives are wrong. Still, when you call into play words like "right" and "wrong", I feel like you're treading on dangerous territory... doesn't that still suppose a higher definition of the words? Some ultimate right and wrong?

Anyway, do you think your neighbor was kicked out or fled in embarrassment? My apartment neighbor has noisy sex every once in awhile, and while we don't cheer her and her off-again-on-again boyfriend on, we certainly don't mind a little background noise to our own orchestra. I think she's of legal drinking age, though.

p.s. like the new profile pic!


[Edited on May 27, 2006 10:12AM]

alright, your response was dead-on. i think the "does this bring me closer to my goal?" is the single best way to put it. and i get it now. sadly, i agree about the president more, but honestly... do we know for sure that he doesn't think he's actually trying to do what's best? he might be that dillusional. quite possible. then again, we do know he's a filthy liar about plenty of things, and he certainly wasn't innocent going into it all. he just seems to have gotten stupider as the terms have worn on. i once saw a side-by-side video of a speech he gave back in the gov'na days and a very recent speech - day and night, he's totally fried his brain.

congrats on the computer luckage. for some reason i always feel like when i'm typing here, everyone can see into my computer - as in, they know what kind of computer i'm using and what's playing, etc. not a paranoid kind of thing, just a childish kind of thing. somewhere along the lines of how a kid thinks you can't see him if he has his head hidden and not the rest of him...

anyway, that's good you are so kind to your books. sometimes i feel guilty for marking in mine, like i'm not respecting them enough. (and of course i wouldn't bring a pen within ten feet of my antique books.) but then i console myself by considering it as a conversation with the text, and maybe there's more respect in really being engaged and using a book than setting it pristinely on the shelf. what say you?

no, i haven't read either of those authors i'm sorry to say. it sounds like stuff i'd like though. i've been spending the past couple of months rereading old college books that i couldn't stand the first time i read them. just absolute crap. and it's making me sick. i just couldn't really afford new books, and Half Price didn't have In Cold Blood.

Bonnaroo sounds like it definitely has some plus sides to it, but i think there is a lot of stuff i wouldn't want to deal with as it gets bigger every year. but that's the way things go. lots of amazing acts, though, indeed.

about marking in books - if it really, really moves me, i just can't let it go. and by having my favorite lines marked, if i'm ever looking for inspiration or just happen to remember that there's a delicious quote in a certain book, all i have to do is flip.

i might try to find those books, but that'll have to wait till funds pick up. that's why i'm rereading old college books - even ones i can't stand. and Oprah has picked a winner or two. The Corrections was awesome (even though Mr. Franzen tried to turn her book club offer down until he was pretty much forced to accept) and of course Toni Morrison is the most eloquent novelist ever.

Are you one of those types who underlines all the passages and lines in books that make your eyes start out of your head in recognition? Me too. (Good for you for the Neverending Story ref.)

I'd say my favorite of those quotes, and they're all incredible by the way, would have to be the one about Here and Now. I guess I feel that way pretty often because, when it comes down to it, we generally put off most easily the things which matter most. Why is that? What disease have we all contracted? Mr. Bach eloquently proved it to be the myth it is.

at least you're thinking about it and considering it. carefree-ness might be a sign of something worse. good luck.

there are lots of reasons....bamboo blinds eh? sounds exciting!

yes, bamboo blinds do liven up a place. thanks for your comment, but it's not a very happy poem for me. not a very happy time right now which is why i've been gone. i'll be back someday.

i know that feeling. sometimes i think it would be simpler without family - i've always been closer to friends anyway. i would have made a good hermit, but alas, i think i have always at least had one friend in my life it would have killed me to leave. i'm sorry for your situation - i hope things come back to life for you. wait till you see them, maybe you'll warm up.

I'm a consumer of things like that, not a provider, but I totally agree with you. I understand why everyone thinks things like cell phones are overpriced (I'm one of them), but I don't consider myself being cheated for things like you mentioned. Maybe people should learn to read the fine print and avoid the stupid situations they get themselves into - better yet, they should just learn how to read.

and yes, Oldboy rocks my socks.

i hate doing stuff like that, but today i had to call and haggle with my provider because they were trying to charge me late fees for not paying when they were supposed to be taking the payments directly out of my account. of course i was polite and all that (i know what it's like to be on the other end of those calls), but it's a pain. i did enjoy your fine print story. "yes it IS ridiculous." we were just discussing last night with the guys who work at our favorite coffeeshop that a good way to reduce the population would be to include in the fine print in some big contest: after this contest, you will be eaten. no one would read it! it'd be perfect!

i've heard a lot about Spring, Summer, etc. and i guess somehow it eluded our netflix list. it's on there now though. i must recommend Tsotsi which is in arthouse theatres now - south african, very good film.

okay, I won't mention it. the neverending sto-ory ah-ah-ah-ah-ah... the neverending sto-ory.... can you hear it? he he, singing the theme song for you. anyway, can you recall which film is based on Hamlet but set in modern times?

look at this - i look like i'm having a conversation with myself. update for goodness sake!

if you end up homeless and jobless in europe, something tells me you'll be the happier for it. besides, you can be homeless and jobless and not speak the language, too! he he.

oh, i guess i'm out of my league since i've only seen the Neverending Story movies. grew up with them and, for some reason, always like the second one better. i think it's because i liked the boy better. i'll really have to watch them again. both on VHS of course.

did i ever ask you if you've seen Oldboy? korean, but still...

gross! you sick freak - who likes the flu!?! just ride some rollercoasters if you want to feel lightheaded, or hop on a swingset and swing too high. don't get the bloody flu!

goodness. well, pamper yourself while you have it, i suppose. eat lots of ice cream, i hear that's good for you.

ARE YOU WELL YET?

stupid over a girl. that's really not a bad place to be, you know? it's been awhile since i've felt honest angst and i kind of miss it.

pardon my presumptions. define stupid.