fr3ak

today was goin so well boss was out of town slow day.. was getting alota work done with no one there to bother me.. my back is healing nicely though it itches a lil bit..



thennnnnnnn at about 8pm my step dad called which he rarely ever does.. we get along great.. he just dosent call all that much... he then starts to ask if im at work and can i call when i get off.. so im like naw its cool..

he then starts to tell me that my moms test results came back from some moles she had removed. 5 of 6 came back fine... the 6th one has melanoma pretty bad and they have to do surgery and stuff like that to see how bad it really is..


ok not so bad right? everyone in california gets some sort of skin cancer if they arnt that carfull at some point


sooo i ask how she is since she freaks out alot and i get..

"well theres more. your grandmothers results came back as well"

soo now im like fuck.. now what.. though he wouldnt tell me about how bad she was untill i got off work.. so now im really scared.. since thats how they told me one of my aunties died. when i got off work and home...

ok soo long story short..

i get home call back... it turns out that grandma has might have bone cancer (they think) they have to do a bone marrow test to be sure..which is also how my aunti died.....

sooo now im sitting at home alone worrying .. yaaayyy.. im either going to stay up till i pass out or get drunk and pass out..




it stops the randomness in my mind..