I want to feel rotten
Ok check it.
I spent six hours studying German this weekend, translating roughly ten of the 36 pages in the chapter. We are supposed to complete the entire chapter in 7 days. I spent hours on this German, and I have two days left to study, another class at school which I must study and write for, and I don't feel very well.
I'm pissed. I called Mom and Dad, and they want me to feel better. I don't want to feel better, I want to feel rotten. I'm not looking for a solution. Sure I can cough up some money and drop the course, or cough up a little less money and drop the course and add another one.
Tara is cheering me up. I hope I don't upset her, I probably interact with Judaism slightly differently than she does as someone who is converting. But I still love it. God's people for sure, I've never felt better about a community, other than maybe the Quakers, who turned out later to be a little cracked anyway.
And just for the record, Quakers don't wear funny hats or live on farms without running water. They aren't Amish.
They are very spiritual pacifist Christians, with a very individualistic turn of mind. Going to meeting there, they say it's not a Church, you are left free to speak or be silent, even if you are annoying them. And there is no minister. Reading the Bible is something they do, but they don't spend alot of time talking about it, or trying to get you to do it either.
There is just a room and chairs, and an hour. Each member of meeting has their own theology, and I figured out the leanings of only one or two. It was a good time for me. Until the meeting became a political forum, and a generally anti-Israeli one as well. The Jews and the Quakers. Polarized in this case. Probably not every meeting has such leanings, this one was near the very left-liberal Antioch College in Yellow Springs, and most of the Quakers were professors. Sad though.
As I just told Tara, I eventually found their presence stressful and I left eventually. Both groups. I'm no good with community, if every man was like me there would be no society.
So now I'm down again. What to do about German? Arggh.
Must get up early tomorrow and get motivated, there are some important things to take care of.
Later,
Tim.
P.S. I will tell you Wednesday how translating those last 26 pages is going. Fuck ass.
Ok check it.
I spent six hours studying German this weekend, translating roughly ten of the 36 pages in the chapter. We are supposed to complete the entire chapter in 7 days. I spent hours on this German, and I have two days left to study, another class at school which I must study and write for, and I don't feel very well.
I'm pissed. I called Mom and Dad, and they want me to feel better. I don't want to feel better, I want to feel rotten. I'm not looking for a solution. Sure I can cough up some money and drop the course, or cough up a little less money and drop the course and add another one.
Tara is cheering me up. I hope I don't upset her, I probably interact with Judaism slightly differently than she does as someone who is converting. But I still love it. God's people for sure, I've never felt better about a community, other than maybe the Quakers, who turned out later to be a little cracked anyway.
And just for the record, Quakers don't wear funny hats or live on farms without running water. They aren't Amish.
They are very spiritual pacifist Christians, with a very individualistic turn of mind. Going to meeting there, they say it's not a Church, you are left free to speak or be silent, even if you are annoying them. And there is no minister. Reading the Bible is something they do, but they don't spend alot of time talking about it, or trying to get you to do it either.
There is just a room and chairs, and an hour. Each member of meeting has their own theology, and I figured out the leanings of only one or two. It was a good time for me. Until the meeting became a political forum, and a generally anti-Israeli one as well. The Jews and the Quakers. Polarized in this case. Probably not every meeting has such leanings, this one was near the very left-liberal Antioch College in Yellow Springs, and most of the Quakers were professors. Sad though.
As I just told Tara, I eventually found their presence stressful and I left eventually. Both groups. I'm no good with community, if every man was like me there would be no society.
So now I'm down again. What to do about German? Arggh.
Must get up early tomorrow and get motivated, there are some important things to take care of.
Later,
Tim.
P.S. I will tell you Wednesday how translating those last 26 pages is going. Fuck ass.