If I didn't know the answer before I don't know it now, but I am still looking and hopefully I will get to where I need to be. It is all a journey, and I am trying to enjoy the ride, unfortuntely it isn't all that easy. the personal struggles can get to be too much and that is when I just want to run away... I believe I see the light at the end of the tunnel, but before i get there, there is going to be quite a bit of pain...