Well you never know what life will throw at you.
I met a woman recently who has stolen my heart and she scares the shit out of me. She is like no one I have ever met and she is constantly in my thoughts. All I can think about are ways to make her happy.
It is hard because I have been terribly burned by the people I have loved and trusted the most. (i.e. My Ex fiance got married to my ex Friend last month in the dress we got for our wedding.)
I am not going to let what they did to me make me hard inside. It is just very hard to let somone in.
Shanna makes me believe in people again and she is an amazing person. So I am slowly learning to trust again. I just hope that I am not setting myself up for another fall.
Bought myself a bass recently and have been spending time trying to learn it. I have wanted to learn the bass for years and hope that I have the ability to at least not suck on it. Shanna has been very helpfull and is trying to learn as well.
I am very unhappy with my company and I think they are none to happy with me right now either. I let them know that I am unwilling to move to Memphis. Since I have met Shanna I have decided that I don't want to miss the chance that we might have together. I think that what I have been building with Shanna is more important than any job. I do not want to lose what could be over money. My company does not feel the same way but oh well.
I think I need a job that is not so high stress anyway.
On the the 18th I had myself a little scare. I was at my desk on the phone with a customer. (I am tech support so when customers call they are not happy.) Well the left side of my chest had been bothering me since lunch. While on the phone it became unbearable to the point where I was on th verge of passing out. A coworker got worried and drove me to the emergency room. They thought I was having a heart attack. I spent 13 hours in a room where I was constantly watched having blood test and EKG's taken every four hours. In the end it seems not to have been a heart attack. They think I might have had some type of stress attack. It scared the shit out of me though. The hospital has recomended that I go and take stress test. (that is where thy hook you up to machines and test you while exersising)
Either way I have decided to make som changes in how I live. Last night I had what I hope is my last cigaret for ever. It is going to be hard trying to kick smokes so I hope you guy's can send some good vibes my way. I am also going to work on my diet as well as get my lazy ass back in a workout program.
Well I think that about covers life right now and hope things are well with all of you.
I still miss Gabe. He never came home.
"I got my finger on the trigger
But I don't know who to trust
When I look into your eyes
There's just devils and dust
We're a long, long way from home, Bobbie
Home's a long, long way from us
I feel a dirty wind blowing
Devils and dust"
-The Boss
Bruce is the man.
-Kim
I met a woman recently who has stolen my heart and she scares the shit out of me. She is like no one I have ever met and she is constantly in my thoughts. All I can think about are ways to make her happy.
It is hard because I have been terribly burned by the people I have loved and trusted the most. (i.e. My Ex fiance got married to my ex Friend last month in the dress we got for our wedding.)
I am not going to let what they did to me make me hard inside. It is just very hard to let somone in.
Shanna makes me believe in people again and she is an amazing person. So I am slowly learning to trust again. I just hope that I am not setting myself up for another fall.
Bought myself a bass recently and have been spending time trying to learn it. I have wanted to learn the bass for years and hope that I have the ability to at least not suck on it. Shanna has been very helpfull and is trying to learn as well.
I am very unhappy with my company and I think they are none to happy with me right now either. I let them know that I am unwilling to move to Memphis. Since I have met Shanna I have decided that I don't want to miss the chance that we might have together. I think that what I have been building with Shanna is more important than any job. I do not want to lose what could be over money. My company does not feel the same way but oh well.
I think I need a job that is not so high stress anyway.
On the the 18th I had myself a little scare. I was at my desk on the phone with a customer. (I am tech support so when customers call they are not happy.) Well the left side of my chest had been bothering me since lunch. While on the phone it became unbearable to the point where I was on th verge of passing out. A coworker got worried and drove me to the emergency room. They thought I was having a heart attack. I spent 13 hours in a room where I was constantly watched having blood test and EKG's taken every four hours. In the end it seems not to have been a heart attack. They think I might have had some type of stress attack. It scared the shit out of me though. The hospital has recomended that I go and take stress test. (that is where thy hook you up to machines and test you while exersising)
Either way I have decided to make som changes in how I live. Last night I had what I hope is my last cigaret for ever. It is going to be hard trying to kick smokes so I hope you guy's can send some good vibes my way. I am also going to work on my diet as well as get my lazy ass back in a workout program.
Well I think that about covers life right now and hope things are well with all of you.
I still miss Gabe. He never came home.
"I got my finger on the trigger
But I don't know who to trust
When I look into your eyes
There's just devils and dust
We're a long, long way from home, Bobbie
Home's a long, long way from us
I feel a dirty wind blowing
Devils and dust"
-The Boss
Bruce is the man.
-Kim
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plasticeye:
yello! hope yer doing well sir............didnt see ya round for awhile...........peace to ya! 
neuroticanne:
Have a fun & safe holiday! 
