foreverxbroken

there is nothing a random stranger could say to you to make you feel better....however, sometimes it helps to hear other peoples problems, this way you can see that others have at least lived thru similar crap.

acouple years ago i was engaged. my fiance and i had been living together for several years and one day she told me that she had gotten drunk the night befor and made out with a friend of mine. she assured me it was just a drunk thing and she was just tellling me cuz it was kinda weird/funny. i think of my self as pretty open minded and i felt confident inour relationsip and i believed her at her word so when she told me it was nothing to worry about - i didnt. acouple months later i went away on tour for seven weeks. while i was gone she moved out and broke up with me over the phone. she started seeing my friend as well as several other people. i wont go into the details but needless to say i was devistated. on top of the heartach, when i got back from tour i had two weeks to find a place to live. now im not saying that any of this is worse or better than your own personal situation. we all have our own version of hell to live thru.
forward to present ..
my exgirlfriend and i are still friends now. we both realize that what we thought might have been right for one of us - doesnt mean its always whats right for both of us. but it sure did suck figuring that out!

just remember - this to, shall pass

i spoke on the phone with my grandmother tonight. she is 80+ and living in Tel Aviv, Israel. She was born in Poland to a family of 9 kids. The Nazi's killed all but two and her parents and her cousins and her friends and then she was put into a work camp where she escaped and fled through the Russian Siberia to a Russian version of the work camp. She was bald, lost four toes and wighed 80lbs. And ther in that camp, in that state, she met my grandfather and fell in love. But more importantly...she found her peace. It sounds crazy, but sometimes it takes dispair to understand blessed. My grandmother wakes up every day and thanks god for letting her share another on this planet...

wow.
what a day!?

tomorrow can only be better right!?

a.) precancer is not cancer. cancer is beatable. and it sounds like you got to it early enough that you can fight. imagine what life would have been like if this went undetected? you should be thanking your stars...
b.) they didnt say you cant have kids. there are many beautiful children out there who have suffered far worse than you are now who need loving homes whom you could be a mother to.
c.) better to find out now that you and your bf arent right for each other than further along the process (speaking from experience) only time will tell if you two are meant to be with each other...tough times can tear people apart or bring them together... who knows what will happen down the road...but me thinks yoiu need to focus on you tight about now...
d.) get good money for the ring and buy yourself some new music or get yourself a massage or sumthing to treat yourself well... id say you earned it wouldnt you?


dont question why you are here...we all get shitty hands...as spooky wrote in his journal today...sometimes it feels like we just move from disaster to disaster in life... but the trick is finding your peace in there somewhere... dont let it swallow you...

you'll be fine if you fight... you wont if you give in. i believe its that simple. so fight. fight to be happy. to find balance. to live...to laugh...to love...

stay positive. each night before i go to bed (i try to) make a list in my head of things that make me smile... like frost on roofs, laying in the sun on my carpet on a saturday morning with my kitty, blueberries... it works for me...

yeah yeah. enough. chin up.

*were here if you need us*
*im here if you need me*

wow...i'm so sorry you're going through a hard time sweetie. i'm not sure what to say right now...but it's good that you went ahead and got checked out by the doctor..i'm sure that since they found it now, you will be fine.
if you need anyone to talk to, i'm online a lot...my IM name is on my sg page.

by the way...i'm originally from AL...Dothan actually.
and you are so cute!

hope you feel better soon...

awww
I hope it works out ok. I know things like that can be scarey.

you better be okay... you're the coolest girl on SG...

Sorry I haven't been online, I've been practicing with my band, and I just booked American Nothing here for Halloween (it's gonna be rockin)...

I'll try to get on tonight and talk to you...

And have sex... someone should....

Sorry... I had practice last night, and tonight, and tomorrow, but I'll try to get online and bug you then...

And don't hit me... I'm fragile....

hope today is better for you... and you better have kept up with your fast.... or else you'll punch me....

Wait.... that doesn't make sense.... or does it???

welcome to the club