Ok its probably time for a proper update.
Somethings have been happened recentley that ive kinda been a bit coy about.
My Grandad (Gag) had a purdy severe heart attack 2 weeks ago. Now for those that know me I am VERY close to him, he is totally one of my biggest inspirations and the person everyone tells me i look and act alike. I had a call from my mam on Sunday(2weeks ago) and jumped on a bus and headed for home. I gte kinda worried in situations like that. Just incase the worst happens and if your late...well i wouldnt be able to live with myself. So...thats where ive been going on my days off, just been heading home and checking up on the old fella! hes 85.
My stomach ulcer at this point is critical, it hurts like hell...the docs said to avoid stress...sooo...what happens...3 of the most stressful events of the year happen.
The next thing is that my ex is kinda messing with my head! i love her so much! but she says she cant be with me at the minute...just makes me sick thinking bout it!
On a plus note ive started to play golf again....hahha kinda shocked my old man. I havent played for 2 years! so we went on the course last monday and got to the 3rd hole...a par 5 565yard hole, which i hold the club record for the longest drive...to this day you can see my little plaque down there...so i stride up...take my shot and i land a metre away from my plaque....337 yards baby! haha was so funny!
Another thing...the band, still havent spoken to them, mind oyu there still kinda ignoring me...not that i care...lifes too short to care. I quit for numerous reasons. here are...well...most of them...
When our drummer left i lost my only ally in the band, it was always me and him vs the bassist and the guitarist, he was also the calming influence.
Ive never been the most patient of people when it comes to something i love and do have a typical artistic temperment, i also react VERY badly to being told to do something...my head just tells me to rebel...the more im told to do something the less and less i want to do it, just my way! and that happened a lot in that band.
It became a dictatorship everyone being told what to do by one member...im not into that.
The music was boring, sure i loved it at the time, but it was the same of shit being done by every band now. It was like living off the past, thinking of the fun times and i kind alost all motivation to move forward.
I know all men suffer from the whole 'Peter Pan' affect but none more so than the other band members. I was getting so sick of them not wanting to grow - musically and as people.
This is why I have to move out, move away, anything!
Anywho...enough of my random rant.
Actually one other thing...I'm about to start realising my real dream. Im now in a band with an acoustic guitarist, pianist, bassist, lead guitarist with an occassional drummer. Were sorta doing the whole DMB, Duncan Sheik, Dashboard, City and Colour, Jack Johnson thing. Its so beautiful!
Anyway....thats it! the end.
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Somethings have been happened recentley that ive kinda been a bit coy about.
My Grandad (Gag) had a purdy severe heart attack 2 weeks ago. Now for those that know me I am VERY close to him, he is totally one of my biggest inspirations and the person everyone tells me i look and act alike. I had a call from my mam on Sunday(2weeks ago) and jumped on a bus and headed for home. I gte kinda worried in situations like that. Just incase the worst happens and if your late...well i wouldnt be able to live with myself. So...thats where ive been going on my days off, just been heading home and checking up on the old fella! hes 85.
My stomach ulcer at this point is critical, it hurts like hell...the docs said to avoid stress...sooo...what happens...3 of the most stressful events of the year happen.
The next thing is that my ex is kinda messing with my head! i love her so much! but she says she cant be with me at the minute...just makes me sick thinking bout it!
On a plus note ive started to play golf again....hahha kinda shocked my old man. I havent played for 2 years! so we went on the course last monday and got to the 3rd hole...a par 5 565yard hole, which i hold the club record for the longest drive...to this day you can see my little plaque down there...so i stride up...take my shot and i land a metre away from my plaque....337 yards baby! haha was so funny!
Another thing...the band, still havent spoken to them, mind oyu there still kinda ignoring me...not that i care...lifes too short to care. I quit for numerous reasons. here are...well...most of them...
When our drummer left i lost my only ally in the band, it was always me and him vs the bassist and the guitarist, he was also the calming influence.
Ive never been the most patient of people when it comes to something i love and do have a typical artistic temperment, i also react VERY badly to being told to do something...my head just tells me to rebel...the more im told to do something the less and less i want to do it, just my way! and that happened a lot in that band.
It became a dictatorship everyone being told what to do by one member...im not into that.
The music was boring, sure i loved it at the time, but it was the same of shit being done by every band now. It was like living off the past, thinking of the fun times and i kind alost all motivation to move forward.
I know all men suffer from the whole 'Peter Pan' affect but none more so than the other band members. I was getting so sick of them not wanting to grow - musically and as people.
This is why I have to move out, move away, anything!
Anywho...enough of my random rant.
Actually one other thing...I'm about to start realising my real dream. Im now in a band with an acoustic guitarist, pianist, bassist, lead guitarist with an occassional drummer. Were sorta doing the whole DMB, Duncan Sheik, Dashboard, City and Colour, Jack Johnson thing. Its so beautiful!
Anyway....thats it! the end.
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