sorry a lonely holiday approaches me and i feel like typing a bunch of gibberish, plus it feels better to say things even though they concern no one here and probably won't get any real attention anyway.
don't you hate it when that light bulb comes on and you realize something that you've been thinking for awhile now is more than likely true and there is absolutely nothing in the world to help you make sense of it all. the feeling that all is and was lost? the interwebs gave me that joy today. i could've pieced it all together awhile ago but i didn't want to. ignorance was bliss.
i have nothing to look forward to once i drop my boy off at his mothers house on christmas afternoon except for watching a a tv show i've been looking forward to see for months all by yourself with no family or friends to share it with. i guess one of these day's it all make sense but not today and not this weekend.
maybe the new year will bring about some much needed change. it's a shame too because this one started out so damn good, at least i thought it did. sometimes i wish i was a stupid ignorant fool who was oblivious to the life in front and on the sides of him and could go straight ahead blindly without a care in the world.
the good thing about this site is that with a couple exceptions it's pretty anonymous so i can write these kinds of thing and not worry about all of the god damned phone calls i'd get for writing it somewhere else.
on a lighter note here are a couple of pics i never posted here...
don't you hate it when that light bulb comes on and you realize something that you've been thinking for awhile now is more than likely true and there is absolutely nothing in the world to help you make sense of it all. the feeling that all is and was lost? the interwebs gave me that joy today. i could've pieced it all together awhile ago but i didn't want to. ignorance was bliss.
i have nothing to look forward to once i drop my boy off at his mothers house on christmas afternoon except for watching a a tv show i've been looking forward to see for months all by yourself with no family or friends to share it with. i guess one of these day's it all make sense but not today and not this weekend.
maybe the new year will bring about some much needed change. it's a shame too because this one started out so damn good, at least i thought it did. sometimes i wish i was a stupid ignorant fool who was oblivious to the life in front and on the sides of him and could go straight ahead blindly without a care in the world.
the good thing about this site is that with a couple exceptions it's pretty anonymous so i can write these kinds of thing and not worry about all of the god damned phone calls i'd get for writing it somewhere else.
on a lighter note here are a couple of pics i never posted here...
comixbookgurl:
*hugs*