trying really really hard not to start feeling sorry for myself and be sad..
plans for moving that were getting so close to fruition seem to be falling apart before my eyes.. and the biggest kick in the teeth.. i got a call back today for a job i applied for for when i move.. so now my answer of moving soon is a "i have no fucking idea..."
and then to make tonight extra special.
someone else that.. i may or may not have feelings for.. i really don't know where i stand on that.. is in serious trouble emotionally.. her father found out he has approximately 3 years to live due to brain cancer..
trying really really hard to think happy thoughts but they're hard to come by when it's deja vu of your life as an out of control trainwreck...
**edit** i will look at the positive.. it does give me more time to save up money.. and as the place called back this quick.. they're obviously interested.. must remind myself these facts..
plans for moving that were getting so close to fruition seem to be falling apart before my eyes.. and the biggest kick in the teeth.. i got a call back today for a job i applied for for when i move.. so now my answer of moving soon is a "i have no fucking idea..."
and then to make tonight extra special.
someone else that.. i may or may not have feelings for.. i really don't know where i stand on that.. is in serious trouble emotionally.. her father found out he has approximately 3 years to live due to brain cancer..
trying really really hard to think happy thoughts but they're hard to come by when it's deja vu of your life as an out of control trainwreck...
**edit** i will look at the positive.. it does give me more time to save up money.. and as the place called back this quick.. they're obviously interested.. must remind myself these facts..
paintedbat:
shit I hope things start to look up. 