flyonwall

sometimes.. or.. often times it feels I put too much stock into the things I do not have very much control over.. but then.. I sit back and think how a tenuous a grasp one has on the flow of their own life.. you can make all the decisions you want in the world.. but ultimately.. it's the situations that arise out consequence and random chance that decide your fate..

and there are daily reminders that when things do not work out as you planned or hoped for, it can still be for the best.. but it's a struggle to brainwash yourself with that on a daily basis.



at least i'm not constantly bitching about work. anymore.. right?

**edit** and.. i now am back to black and red hair.. and.. it wasn't a horrible job.. things to improve upon next time around but all in all..not too bad..

and nothingnice.com is back.. and apparently has been for awhile.. today is suddenly a better day..

now time for a nap before work.. since.. i must be p in about 5 hours..