Spent time with Mary last night, definately no spark, I can feel that. Not sexually attracted to her (it sucks but it matters). We get along great, just not on that level. I hadn't even realized I felt like that until I sat down and started typing this. Some things just aren't meant to be. Speaking of which I saw the ex last night. She came over but we both decided it wasn't a good thing for her to come inside...We would've hooked up as soon as the door closed. I have so many ill feelings toward her, but I still care. I'm so fucking lame. But I'm not going to go back to her, I know that. I guess I just want to prove to myself I didn't waste that time I spent with her. I fuckin' suck at relationships. I'm going to just chill and wait to see what happens. Maybe I'll meet the right one, or at least a few in some latex and platforms to keep me cozy 'til she arrives. Peace.
adonis:
you don't need to go back. you don't.