Okay, on July 6 we messed around again. It was prefaced by her constantly teasing and torturing me at her fourth of July party. I would be doing something and turn around and she would be right there in front of me and would say something like " I so want to kiss you right now but I can't". Then she would linger really closely for a few more seconds, sigh loudly and pull herself away. It was quite torturous and went on all night. I warned her I would get her back for that. In truth, I love head games; I think they are funny in a painful way. Besides, the more intense the torture the better the eventual sex may be when you finally get it. You finally get to release all of that pent up sexual energy. The whole situation was still really dangerous because her boyfriend (aka. my brother-in-law) does not want it happening, and was just in the other room on the Playstation with my husband. He could have walked in at any moment,and it could have turned really bad. I am fully aware that this is a terrible idea, but this girl has my number. Her body is ridiculously fine; she flirts with me constantly when out of earshot of everyone else; and she has this scent that drives me absolutely mad. To top it off, I am a bisexual with a strong leaning toward women, so that definitely doesn't help. The one thing that truly bugs me is that each time after we do something, when I try to contact her it seems near to impossible to get a response back from her. I would possibly expect this from some guys but it seems unusual for a girl. It definitely makes me feel as if we are not that close outside of the bedroom and that anything complimentary she is saying to me (and she says a lot of really flattering things) are more related to her alcohol consumption and less to her true feelings. It makes me feel like I don't know where I stand with her. It is almost as if I am dealing with two different people, In some ways that may be close to the case, She admitted that she is a "dichotomous" person. Anyway it is bothersome for me to open up and be intimate with someone and then not have them even show me the courtesy of returning a text. It just leaves me confused, irritated, and a little hurt.
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