flicker

sooo, my last semester has started (i'm graduating with a two year degree at a community college after three years at ou and one year at said community college). i'm just really tired and lonely right now. really wish i had a computer so i could talk with more people on sg because you guys are all really cool and stuff, supposed to be getting...
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i am sad puppy my car is no more, the engine blew yesterday, so now i have to bum rides from boy, my parents, and people i work with. fuck. i'm stressed out already and now this. sometimes i just get so tired of it all that i can't remember why i'm supposed to go on. plus, boy is going to be gone all summer

i am sad because, well, i don't know why, i just am. i'm tired of crying so much and only hanging out with a few people and being so tired that the circles under my eyes are turning black. i'm just so tired, and there's nothing i can do about it because i'm too poor to work less. soo, it looks like i will work...
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sooo, who wants to give flicker a computer? i neeeed to be on sg everday, i'm having withdrawals. i guess i kind of need to have a computer for school, too, but that's beside the point.

soo, it sucks. i don't have a computer and can only be on here when i'm at school or boy's. i'm hoping to be able to get a computer and some cheap internet and then i could be on here all the time. hmm, so, i absolutely adore my new apartment, but i miss everybody on here oh well. okay, i'm going to look around...
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so saturday is moving day. moving out of the old place and into the new. i'm excited, but worried that things will fuck up. oh well. sucks that i won't be able to use a computer except at boy's house. i wish i could put my membership on hold until i got my own computer.

well, the good news is that i've finally found an apartment, everything should be finalized on monday, phwew, such a relief. it will be soo nice to be closer to my family and my boy. the bad news is my dog is still dying, it's so hard because he's always been my baby. i trained him from when he was a puppy and he slept...
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i feel like everything is so futile. i learn to love people and animals, knowing that someday they will get tired of me or die, and i will be left with a gaping hole inside me that can never be filled completely again.

my dog is dying

yay for working at christie's toybox. it's usually pretty entertaining, but it makes me a bit sexually frustrated, being surrounded by all those dildos and vibrators and not being able to do anything about it. my boy should be grateful he doesn't see me right after i get off work because i would tear him apart

i still haven't found a place to live and i'm supposed to move out july 31. i think i'm SOL. oh well, my parents said i can live w/ them for a bit if i need to, i'd just rather not b/c i won't be able to have my kitty there