SUNDAY SUNDAY SUNDAY! Isn't there a tractorpull I could be at. I've clocked way too much time infront of the screen this weekend.
Compared to last weekend I feel suicidal. Its amazing how my mood can change so drastically when love is in the air. She left for home for her Spring Break - this is not going to be an easy week.
I really don't know what the hell I'm doing with her, but I enjoy not knowing what the hell I'm doing with her.
An old friend came over last night - we watched Nosferatu the Kinski-Herzog version. I really enjoyed it, even though I begged to watch Ichi The Killer instead. I can't stand when people want to discuss movies while they are still playing.
I realized last night that I choose very few of my friends. Not to say I dont like them or enjoy their company... but I'm never the active person in making friends. I guess thats the INFP in me. I think thats whats making getting this relationship off the ground properly so difficult. She is defintely not going to be the aggressor, I am expected to be. It would be an ubter shame to not try - when she *seems* so worth it.
I feel giddy, like in high school. I dont feel awkward though. I feel like I can't lie to her. She'd see right through it. Which is comforting and scary at the same time.
I'm ready for somthing different, and this is it. I can say and type all I want (excercise for myself), but unless I make some changes - I'm fucked. I'm too old for this, grow the fuck up! I should be used to all the bullshit by now. Is this the bullshit or is this the good stuff?
A wise man told me "No good ever came from being comfortable." (except comfort, that is)
Last 10 Songs:
1. Blur - Tender
2. The Rolling Stones - Waiting On A Friend
3. The Streets - Sharp Darts
4. colleen - ritournelle
5. The Kinks - Complicated Life
6. Tim Hardin - Red Balloon
7. Alexander Spence - Keep Everything Under Your Hat
8. The Rolling Stones - When The Whip Comes Down
9. Roxy Music - She Sells
10. Nick Drake - Man In A Shed
Bands I will make an effort to listen to more of this week:
Blur, M. Ward, Moving Units, Colleen, Captain Beefheart
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ed4spelling, actually i never knew you could edit journals before - this is a first.
I should probably go back and edit out some of the stupid shit i wrote in the past....but eh.
Compared to last weekend I feel suicidal. Its amazing how my mood can change so drastically when love is in the air. She left for home for her Spring Break - this is not going to be an easy week.
I really don't know what the hell I'm doing with her, but I enjoy not knowing what the hell I'm doing with her.
An old friend came over last night - we watched Nosferatu the Kinski-Herzog version. I really enjoyed it, even though I begged to watch Ichi The Killer instead. I can't stand when people want to discuss movies while they are still playing.
I realized last night that I choose very few of my friends. Not to say I dont like them or enjoy their company... but I'm never the active person in making friends. I guess thats the INFP in me. I think thats whats making getting this relationship off the ground properly so difficult. She is defintely not going to be the aggressor, I am expected to be. It would be an ubter shame to not try - when she *seems* so worth it.
I feel giddy, like in high school. I dont feel awkward though. I feel like I can't lie to her. She'd see right through it. Which is comforting and scary at the same time.
I'm ready for somthing different, and this is it. I can say and type all I want (excercise for myself), but unless I make some changes - I'm fucked. I'm too old for this, grow the fuck up! I should be used to all the bullshit by now. Is this the bullshit or is this the good stuff?
A wise man told me "No good ever came from being comfortable." (except comfort, that is)
Last 10 Songs:
1. Blur - Tender
2. The Rolling Stones - Waiting On A Friend
3. The Streets - Sharp Darts
4. colleen - ritournelle
5. The Kinks - Complicated Life
6. Tim Hardin - Red Balloon
7. Alexander Spence - Keep Everything Under Your Hat
8. The Rolling Stones - When The Whip Comes Down
9. Roxy Music - She Sells
10. Nick Drake - Man In A Shed
Bands I will make an effort to listen to more of this week:
Blur, M. Ward, Moving Units, Colleen, Captain Beefheart
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ed4spelling, actually i never knew you could edit journals before - this is a first.
I should probably go back and edit out some of the stupid shit i wrote in the past....but eh.