flakaseagulls

okay.

one of the more trying days of my life. brutal. stressful. i'm exhausted, although its funny--the more brutal the day, the better you feel at the end of it for having survived it without (a) self-medicating, and (b) running down the street wtih a machete.

blargh.

:-(

today is not a good day. not at all. nothing is ever easy is it? well, except me. *rowr*
^----self-depricating humor. hahah.

im proud of myself. w/ my kerazy sciency experimental lifestyle i primarily subsist on canned foods. however, my friend trina is coming to the rescue by teaching me quick/easy recipes. i have a pot pie in my fridge which is the fruit of last night's labor. ALSO, tofu. i know its really healthy, but it CAN taste good--i KNOW it can. i'm going to find...
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i was really looking for something OTHER than work/school to talk about, and i couldn't find anything, especially w/ all the bitter bitching id like to do. mainly i was looking for jobs and begain to bang my head against the wall. so much to do...so little time.

on a happy note, Draft 4 was printed (and i miraculously caught 12 typos before it went)...
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mmmm.

starting to build this shit to make an actual mini space rocket. lots of murphy's law crap is rearing its ugly head...but so far nothing's exploded...busy day/nights ahead but hey it beats others gigs i've had.

quick poll: if you could choose one city to be crazy in and try to be a writer what would it be: NYC, LA, Boston, Providene, elsewhere????

life. i'm not sure if life is completely fucking insane, or just most humans are. it's amazing that we all have our own versions of reality, and dont realize the dangers of not at least considering that there are external realities to the ones we perceive. *sigh*

i think i choose to be alone bc many of the people in my life have been a...
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okay, so i'm convinced that the "honey and meade" teh gods were said to have embraced was mistranslated in ancient text, and they meant "coffee".

seriously. without it i'm a menace to society and literally insane. i can't even formulate a sentence without it. but when i have it, the world is beautiful. baby, lovin you is addiction, i dont wanna be clean.

have you ever had one of those moments where you want to hide under a desk or something. you dont want to move. you just want to run the fuck away, get a new name (i like Pablo), and start a new life in NYC?

i'm frustrated because a project i poured 1.5 yrs of my life into might be toast, JUST when im only...
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you ever get the feeling that you've been fucked?

like, fucked? because of the failure of others?

that sucks.

Rainy day, freezing in the lab, but i've got the space heater going on so my fingers DO have feeling.

Yay for not blowing anything up today and making actual progress. Yay for coffee being kept semi-warm by the semi-stupid method of being in front of afore-mentioned heater. Yay for greasy/comfort Chinese food. Yay for having Oreo's in drawer. Yay for making progress in screenplay...
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