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Not doing to well but well enough... i will update more as soon as i can. Im going to have to work my ass of for a while to get back on my feet... i wish i had less worries and problems but i know everything im dealing with is my fault so i have no choice but to grind my teeth and make it through. I found a apartment... just me and the girls... i turned in my application and they are doing their thing now and ill know soon whats going on. Apparently i make enough money just dont have much rental history (most of the properties ive lived at where in my ex's name). So for the first time in my life i will live all on my own... well kinda... with my kids. I have no one to depend on but myself... i guess thats good? Its a strange feeling... and im scared shitless. I will be the first to say im not good at living alone... im scared of every noise... i plan and plot how to get myself and my kids out of every emergency situation... i cant open jars to save my life... and i always need someone to kill roaches for me. wow... no one to depend on but myself... i have to keep repeating that to myself... all along my dad would tell me that no man would be as dependable as him... too bad it took my 26 years to learn it... well 27... my birthday, july 2, is coming up =) I will talk to you guys soon...


ps. song you must hear... one of my favorite John Lennon songs... Oh My Love... if you havent heard it listen....