You guys have been really sweet... i really wanted to come on here and blog so everyone knows whats going on with me... i didnt think i would have a line of men ready if i were to be come single again 
Im staying at my moms... i have my girls... ofcourse. Im still in school ofcourse.... and im working my ass off because now i know i need it. Sometimes its a bit overwhelming... ive realized im now a single mom. wow. My ex has decided he is going to move to LA... he bought a plane ticket for in a week or so to go up there and audition for a band... then he plans on moving up a few weeks after that... its gonna screw me over since i need him to watch the kids sometimes so i can be in school... but i cant tell him not to go... its his dream... and i broke his heart. So i just work more so that i can pay for daycare if needed... lately ive been pulling in around 1000 every week or so... for a freelancing designer still in school... thats alot of work to do. blah. Im not burned out... and im not complaining... im grateful for the opportunity to make money like that... and if it wasnt there i dont know what i would do.
Relationships... geez... sometimes i get a scared realizing that now i have to ask someone to not only take on me (which can be alot) but to take on my kids too. crap. i dont know if im worth having to deal with me kids as well... i guess we will see... its all still very fresh.
Over a week ago i got a new tattoo... yeah! It was actually done about 4 or 5 days after i left him. It was planned beforehand but whilst i got it i felt like it was the start of a new beginning... which is why i went ahead and got bright pink in it instead of the usual black. I dont have great pictures of it just yet... not like you guys really care but i really wanted to show you all...
this photo is reversed (taken in the mirror) so its really on my other side (obviously since my nin tattoo is on my right side)...
heres a close up (no mirror)
Im in love with it. You would have to really be up on me to appreciate the beautiful color of the pink. It really glows... It was a rather painful area to get done at times... ecspecially the large star and the small pink one way at the bottom (which is really rather low if you could see me without clothes on)...
At the beginning of Spring Break i dyed my hair... i went to a much darker red... i actually did it right before i left... i dont know if it was a premonition in my mind... but thats the way it happened. I think i look like a completely different person now... sometimes i feel like it too.
I know i need to take a new photo set... i think i can turn a new one in to see if it gets through in April... My husband usually took the photos so now i will have to have someone else do them... maybe a fresh eye will be just what i needed... plus i havent taken any photos on here with my new camera which is really awesome.
If it didnt come across well in this blog id like to say that im very happy... so dont worry about me... im a rather independent person to begin with so i can handle whatever life throws at me. I just ordered my cap and gown last week and graduation is starting to make me a tad nervous... but im excited... im kinda just worried i wont be able to find a job!
i promise to update often....
ok... and just so you guys know... there is allready "someone"... [ NiteRunner ] we will see how willing he is to take on this package deal that is me...
Im staying at my moms... i have my girls... ofcourse. Im still in school ofcourse.... and im working my ass off because now i know i need it. Sometimes its a bit overwhelming... ive realized im now a single mom. wow. My ex has decided he is going to move to LA... he bought a plane ticket for in a week or so to go up there and audition for a band... then he plans on moving up a few weeks after that... its gonna screw me over since i need him to watch the kids sometimes so i can be in school... but i cant tell him not to go... its his dream... and i broke his heart. So i just work more so that i can pay for daycare if needed... lately ive been pulling in around 1000 every week or so... for a freelancing designer still in school... thats alot of work to do. blah. Im not burned out... and im not complaining... im grateful for the opportunity to make money like that... and if it wasnt there i dont know what i would do.
Relationships... geez... sometimes i get a scared realizing that now i have to ask someone to not only take on me (which can be alot) but to take on my kids too. crap. i dont know if im worth having to deal with me kids as well... i guess we will see... its all still very fresh.
Over a week ago i got a new tattoo... yeah! It was actually done about 4 or 5 days after i left him. It was planned beforehand but whilst i got it i felt like it was the start of a new beginning... which is why i went ahead and got bright pink in it instead of the usual black. I dont have great pictures of it just yet... not like you guys really care
but i really wanted to show you all...this photo is reversed (taken in the mirror) so its really on my other side (obviously since my nin tattoo is on my right side)...
heres a close up (no mirror)
Im in love with it. You would have to really be up on me to appreciate the beautiful color of the pink. It really glows... It was a rather painful area to get done at times... ecspecially the large star and the small pink one way at the bottom (which is really rather low if you could see me without clothes on)...
At the beginning of Spring Break i dyed my hair... i went to a much darker red... i actually did it right before i left... i dont know if it was a premonition in my mind... but thats the way it happened. I think i look like a completely different person now... sometimes i feel like it too.
I know i need to take a new photo set... i think i can turn a new one in to see if it gets through in April... My husband usually took the photos so now i will have to have someone else do them... maybe a fresh eye will be just what i needed... plus i havent taken any photos on here with my new camera which is really awesome.
If it didnt come across well in this blog id like to say that im very happy... so dont worry about me... im a rather independent person to begin with so i can handle whatever life throws at me. I just ordered my cap and gown last week and graduation is starting to make me a tad nervous... but im excited... im kinda just worried i wont be able to find a job!
i promise to update often....
ok... and just so you guys know... there is allready "someone"... [ NiteRunner ] we will see how willing he is to take on this package deal that is me...
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Good to hear you're happy!