A few people on here have recently written about why they first joined Suicide Girls so guess this post is loosely based on that
I always admired the confidence of all the Suicide Girls.
Looking at great photographs, especially portraits has always been one of my favourite pasttimes.
Being a Suicide Girl was an ambition of mine since I was about 17.
When I joined the site, I definately had the guts and the confidence to apply; I really liked the way I looked and was never really fazed what other people thought.
Things have changed a bit, and it's a shame but at the same time my own making. Guess it started from having a baby; he's still little so I still have that podge i doubt any new mum really wants to hang around.
I've been in the 2nd longest relationship I've ever been in; and i think my boyfriends perception and longing for me has changed a little bit. That may or may not be in my head, but I feel it none the less.
I can't wear what I wanna wear 'cus i feel self concious my body's not the same.
And I keep seeing recent photo's of myself where I just wanna burn them and curl up.
No one can bring back that confidence I used to have, 'cus I'm the only one who can make me like myself again. I'm not really sure where to start but this morning I kinda decided enough's enough and to do something about it.
I'm never gunna look the same as I did pre-pregnancy, but I am the same person I used to be, and I'm not ugly.
Think I probably just need to concentrate on having a bit of me time, and on making my relationship the best it can be, and on getting back to a size where I think I look hot.
Because I never really just joined Suicide Girls to do what i'm currently doing, just posting dulldrum and chatting to some really nice people (although that's the fun part of the site too!).
I wanted to apply and take some amazing photos for people to look at and like, like I do to the tonnes of sets by hot, confident, ballsy, funny, clever ladies on here.
I always admired the confidence of all the Suicide Girls.
Looking at great photographs, especially portraits has always been one of my favourite pasttimes.
Being a Suicide Girl was an ambition of mine since I was about 17.
When I joined the site, I definately had the guts and the confidence to apply; I really liked the way I looked and was never really fazed what other people thought.
Things have changed a bit, and it's a shame but at the same time my own making. Guess it started from having a baby; he's still little so I still have that podge i doubt any new mum really wants to hang around.
I've been in the 2nd longest relationship I've ever been in; and i think my boyfriends perception and longing for me has changed a little bit. That may or may not be in my head, but I feel it none the less.
I can't wear what I wanna wear 'cus i feel self concious my body's not the same.
And I keep seeing recent photo's of myself where I just wanna burn them and curl up.
No one can bring back that confidence I used to have, 'cus I'm the only one who can make me like myself again. I'm not really sure where to start but this morning I kinda decided enough's enough and to do something about it.
I'm never gunna look the same as I did pre-pregnancy, but I am the same person I used to be, and I'm not ugly.
Think I probably just need to concentrate on having a bit of me time, and on making my relationship the best it can be, and on getting back to a size where I think I look hot.
Because I never really just joined Suicide Girls to do what i'm currently doing, just posting dulldrum and chatting to some really nice people (although that's the fun part of the site too!).
I wanted to apply and take some amazing photos for people to look at and like, like I do to the tonnes of sets by hot, confident, ballsy, funny, clever ladies on here.
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but still - - there is more to the site than just the models, you have a lot more to offer than just pictures of yourself, and there are plenty of people like me who will like & respect you whether or not you're ever "naked on the internet."
Feel better soon.
I thought the lyrics were adorable...my Son said, uh...you can't 'taste the sun'. LOL Silly boy.
And thank you...we just went to the store to get some things in case this hurricane gets as bad as they say. Craziness! Hopefully I won't lose internet. lol