fireluver

O.K., so here's my drama of late......

I'm out Saturday night with the guy I've been seeing. (Very sweet by the way and a definite keeper) Well, we hung out downtown and closed down the bar, and because I parked far away, he drove me to my car. He pulled up behind my car, asked me for my keys cuz he "wanted to make sure my car was warmed up for me". So, we are sitting there for a bit, talking and laughing and throwing in some kisses here and there. Well, once I figured my car was warmed up, I got out and walked to my car. I opened my doors, had enough time to sit down and there is this slam onto the passenger door/window. I look over and it's my psycho ex. I hit the door lock just in time cuz he tried to open the door.

He's standing outside my car yelling and screaming all kinds of shit. I waited till the road was clear and I just pulled out and drove. Well, my new friend who was behind me was watching all this. He pulls away from the curb behind me, and I could see my ex kinda jump in front of his car. My stomach flipped because the last thing I'd want is for my psycho ex to start a fight over me. But, nothing happened and we both were driving away without incident.

Well, my new friend calls me from his cell and asks me what that was about. He thought it was just some guy trying to talk to me. I told him that it was my psycho ex, and that whenever I run into him somewhere he pulls this shit. It's been almost three years since I've been with my ex. I left him before my son was born, and my boy will be 3 in June. For the past three years he's haunted my life like a bad dream. It seems like every time I've tried to move on, he's right there causing some big fucked up drama.

I mean, this one time that he saw me out, in a bar he sucker punched this guy that was talking to me and caused a big ol' bar brawl. This guy that was talking to me in the bar was actually only apologizing because he had just inadvertently stepped on my foot. He wasn't even trying to hit on me, and he got punched in the face and pushed around. This is the mentality of my ex.

In these years he has not gotten over me. He constantly begs me back, claiming that he has changed his ways. But, what he can't seem to understand is that after all the hell he put me through, (and when I say hell I mean the HELL of physical, mental and emotional abuse), there is no fucking way I'd ever be with him again. How can you love someone who has betrayed you more times than you can count. How can you look that person in the eye and not just loathe them????? I loathe him.

So, back to my story. I'm driving home talking to my new friend about my ex, and my other line is ringing NON-STOP! This is my ex calling me over and over and over. And, not only calling, but texting me crazy messages. Calling me horrible names and saying things that were hateful and scary..... I finally texted my psycho ex back and told him that my life was my business and that my new friend was an attorney at the DA's office. This changed my psycho ex's tune rather quickly. Of course he's not going to continue to mess with me knowing that my new guy can put him away. Especially knowing that my new guy witnessed the craziness of that night.

So, no contact for two days from my psycho ex. But, today is the day that he picks up our boy for visitation. So, he comes to my door and he says, "SO YOU FINALLY DISCOVERED SUICIDE GIRLS. THERE'S SOME HOT CHICKS ON THAT SITE, HUH?" And, I go on to tell him that I've been on sg since last year, and that I was an approved model on the site. I applied last November and was instantly approved, and have already asked Lithium Picnic to shoot my first set for me. To which Phillip has ever so sweetly agreed to do! So, he says "Well I've never seen you on the site, but I've been messing around with one of the sg girls from another State since last summer. Maybe you'll get to meet her someday. I'm going to this sg prom with her in May."

It was like the record player screeched to silence....... Now, all I can say about my ex being at the SG Prom is that I will not be anywhere near San Fran if he's there. This fucking sucks ass big fucking time. This guy is someone you should warn your sisters and your friends about. Mr. Con Man with a conviction record two miles long. Hard time in max. security prison. He's a fucking idiot that preys on women. I can't even begin to tell you how I've had to change my life to watch my back. I would not put it past this guy to do something horrible to me one day. I've had restraining orders on him, I've had him in court many times. He puts on a good front, but underneath it all he's a snake in the grass.

If this man is going to be at a closed event of 200 people, I'm not putting myself in the position of being there. He will start shit, people will be hurt, people will be involved, it will not be pretty. I'd rather stay my ass at home than be involved in his drama, and I promise you if he and I are in the same place there will be drama. He's nuts. Absolutely nuts.

So, here is my new dilemma. What do I do? How do I deal with this situation? I don't give a shit that he's gonna be there and that he'll be hanging with some chick. The part that scares the shit out of me is that whatever Male happens to be around me will inevitably be involved in his psycho bullshit. I would never put any of my Male friends in his path, especially knowing what he's capable of.

I don't know what the fuck to do..............