what....nearly 2 months without me saying shit....you just dont say....
first and foremost i would like to thank the inventor of the backspace key....a god in my eyes and the person most mentioned in posts made at 1am after drinking with the guys.
Today was a shit day. 10 hours, no lunch, buncha assholes in my shit giving me a hard time. No time to do the 2 things I HAD to get done until after 5 when i normally leave because i am getting peanuts to do an elephants job. I really need to jump my bosses shit about more money but he works in another town so it is never convenient. Soon thou...soon. I am taking the rest of the week away from my office. Tomorrow it is NIN in Santa Cruz. The next day I fly to Philly to work for Thursday and Friday. Plan on some serious party time with Goob and stoppin in on family. Next week is a monday and tuesday and then i have 6 days off scheduled (east coast trip was cancelled....i hate relationships for that). Either way...they get to see me work 3 days in 2 weeks and see how fucked the office gets without me....should be a nice wake up call and motivation for them to show me the money!
Relationships.....i have been screwing mine up. Seems that my work life has sucked me dry. Only time i was really content was when i spent time with the girlfriend and her needs for some independance has been oil and water. I FINALLY pulled my head out of my ass and realized I was using her as a crutch and kicked myself something fierce. Problem is the damage is done and now she is on the offensive. At least I realized it before it was completely irreprable and we are now working through things. She is wary I will just fall back to routine but I am determined not to totally fuck things up. She knows she wants this to be that thing that works and that I am the best man she will ever meet (her words). She has decided if we dont work she is done because if she cant make us work she cant make anything work. Anyhow, now I have to lay back a touch and let her lead the way... she still has a needy heart so I know that I will still get my fill of together time so now worries. Lets just hope nothing in my head fucks me up again and causes anything that cant be stopped...
random bitches----
--- fuck empty apartments. I realize what I miss as the temperature drops below 35 here....the people downstairs cranking their heater so I dont have to. My apartment is a freezer and I am too lazy to light a pilot light that hasnt been on in 2 years on my heater to set things right. I should crack down....maybe next week...
--- damn vehicles. My starter died on my truck. Seems something always happens when I am broke and its near the holidays. I tried to fix it, but the space limitations and lack of a jack for the transmission prevented it so $250 later I get it done professionally. Least it was same day service thanks to a great working relaitonship with my mechanic....
--- What else....how about concupisence.... I hate how it dominates my head sometimes and makes me want to do stupid things. Things that jeopardize stuff that is way more important. I have held it in check...but it still rears its ugly head and makes my life difficult.
And on a closing non-bitchy note here is a wish for a speedy recovery for my sister. She may never have kids again but lets hope the surgery, which went well, solves the issues and that she lives to bitch at me in a much much older age than we have already reached. I want her to be an aunt to graduating nephews or nieces (E wants all boys), and I havent had any yet so she has to wait a while.
Thats all....more later after what should be a safe trip east, my first SG party (perhaps if my loving cousin isnt afraid to present me as her kin) and a kick ass concert in a small venue...
first and foremost i would like to thank the inventor of the backspace key....a god in my eyes and the person most mentioned in posts made at 1am after drinking with the guys.
Today was a shit day. 10 hours, no lunch, buncha assholes in my shit giving me a hard time. No time to do the 2 things I HAD to get done until after 5 when i normally leave because i am getting peanuts to do an elephants job. I really need to jump my bosses shit about more money but he works in another town so it is never convenient. Soon thou...soon. I am taking the rest of the week away from my office. Tomorrow it is NIN in Santa Cruz. The next day I fly to Philly to work for Thursday and Friday. Plan on some serious party time with Goob and stoppin in on family. Next week is a monday and tuesday and then i have 6 days off scheduled (east coast trip was cancelled....i hate relationships for that). Either way...they get to see me work 3 days in 2 weeks and see how fucked the office gets without me....should be a nice wake up call and motivation for them to show me the money!
Relationships.....i have been screwing mine up. Seems that my work life has sucked me dry. Only time i was really content was when i spent time with the girlfriend and her needs for some independance has been oil and water. I FINALLY pulled my head out of my ass and realized I was using her as a crutch and kicked myself something fierce. Problem is the damage is done and now she is on the offensive. At least I realized it before it was completely irreprable and we are now working through things. She is wary I will just fall back to routine but I am determined not to totally fuck things up. She knows she wants this to be that thing that works and that I am the best man she will ever meet (her words). She has decided if we dont work she is done because if she cant make us work she cant make anything work. Anyhow, now I have to lay back a touch and let her lead the way... she still has a needy heart so I know that I will still get my fill of together time so now worries. Lets just hope nothing in my head fucks me up again and causes anything that cant be stopped...
random bitches----
--- fuck empty apartments. I realize what I miss as the temperature drops below 35 here....the people downstairs cranking their heater so I dont have to. My apartment is a freezer and I am too lazy to light a pilot light that hasnt been on in 2 years on my heater to set things right. I should crack down....maybe next week...
--- damn vehicles. My starter died on my truck. Seems something always happens when I am broke and its near the holidays. I tried to fix it, but the space limitations and lack of a jack for the transmission prevented it so $250 later I get it done professionally. Least it was same day service thanks to a great working relaitonship with my mechanic....
--- What else....how about concupisence.... I hate how it dominates my head sometimes and makes me want to do stupid things. Things that jeopardize stuff that is way more important. I have held it in check...but it still rears its ugly head and makes my life difficult.
And on a closing non-bitchy note here is a wish for a speedy recovery for my sister. She may never have kids again but lets hope the surgery, which went well, solves the issues and that she lives to bitch at me in a much much older age than we have already reached. I want her to be an aunt to graduating nephews or nieces (E wants all boys), and I havent had any yet so she has to wait a while.
Thats all....more later after what should be a safe trip east, my first SG party (perhaps if my loving cousin isnt afraid to present me as her kin) and a kick ass concert in a small venue...
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Thanks so much for partying with us - and for breakfast.
Hope to see you around!!