Why is it that hindsight is 20/20... why can't the present be 20/20... I know that im not perfect by any means and I know that I can be an asshole at times but I didn't realize how bad I truly was until I pretty much pushed the one that I care for the most away... I have tried to change some things before but I always seem to end up back where I started. Its like im stuck in a never ending circle and I just want to break the cycle... why can't I see the things that im doing wrong when I'm doing them.....