so i just responded to somebody's journal, who was having boy issues. and i don't usually post to my journal, because i tend to be extremely private and the thought of just... letting it all out on the internet sort of disturbs me. but fuck it.
i'm totally in love with a girl who will never love me, and it sucks. we get along incredibly, amazingly, wonderfully. we both find each other attractive. but because we get along so well, she never wants to risk what we have. she never wants to chance our friendship with something physical.
fuck.
i don't even know what to say. it wrecks me. because i want to be the perfect friend, i want to say, i understand. but i don't. or i do, but i don't want to. and i'm left feeling incomplete. and every girl i've dated since (i met her 2 years ago) doesn't even compare, even though they're wonderful in their own right.
how much does that suck? and i just talked to her tonight on the phone, and as always, her voice melted me. i feel futile.
yeah, i'm a hopeless romantic. just remind yourself that there's nothing wrong with love, even if it isn't returned in the way you want it to be.
[Edited on Feb 25, 2003]