Tuesday 25th Nov 00:25
It's been a busy 7 days full of fun frustration and more than anything else the Cold.. It's bloody freezing!
Friday was alot of fun it was a friends house party and yet again I drank waay more than I should've but not to the point where I was ill.. justing feeling like death during work the next morning (I've got a bad habit of being hung over for the saturday shift that's the third time in three weeks.. luckily I apperently cover it well, the guys just thought I was tired)
There was a well nice girl there and for the first time since me n Beth split I've kissed a girl and we cuddled (nothing ungentlemanly [is that even a word]) and I didn't feel absolutely guilt ridden.. in fact I didn't feel guilt at all..
Which peeps tell me is good im single and I know in theory its progress.. but I worry that means for me n beth.. I don't like the fact i might have lost or broken some tie that's irretrievable but why would I retrieve it?? ergh.. its conflicting and confusing..
But i suppose it's better than being sad eh, just the next stage of dealing with things I guess.
I've been trying to arrange this meal for saturday with a collection of close friends, everyone said it's a great idea and were all up for it but from the origal 11, 5 have dropped out because of various reasons.. and I've gone to so much bleeding effort trying to sort out a booking at a restaurant that doesn't take bookings on a saturday.
Still it'll be great fun I'm sure and it'll be a nice way of celebrating mine and my friends birthdays.
I've been looking at evening courses for learning spanish.. I've wanted to learn it for a while but the teach it yourself cd's n books don't sit well with me, I prefure learning from somebody.
There's a 10 week course where I go for once a week for 2 hours and it's 100 starting in january so If I've got the spare cash I'm doing it.. I love education, I miss uni, I wish I'd been able to do that masters..
Back to that girl from Friday for a min
.. she had aaawesome tatts. It reminded me how much I want my tattoo.. I think for my bday I might splash out if I can find a translator 
originally I was going to wait a few months before I had abit more savings n stuff.
But I don't want anything for my bday or christmas because my mums redundant and she needs all the money she has so if I can treat myself I might
get the translation so when I do have more cash I can get the tatt.
I want to get "my" code of chivalry done in Tibetan.. to inspire and remind me, It'll be a shoulder or back peice maybe touching the upper arms (dunno need to talk to the tattooist).
Here's what I want done.. (in tibetan)
Exhibit Courage in word and deed.
Exhibit self control.
Protect the weak and the innocent.
Do not recoil before your enemy.
Always keep one's word of honor.
It's been a busy 7 days full of fun frustration and more than anything else the Cold.. It's bloody freezing!
Friday was alot of fun it was a friends house party and yet again I drank waay more than I should've but not to the point where I was ill.. justing feeling like death during work the next morning (I've got a bad habit of being hung over for the saturday shift that's the third time in three weeks.. luckily I apperently cover it well, the guys just thought I was tired)
There was a well nice girl there and for the first time since me n Beth split I've kissed a girl and we cuddled (nothing ungentlemanly [is that even a word]) and I didn't feel absolutely guilt ridden.. in fact I didn't feel guilt at all..
Which peeps tell me is good im single and I know in theory its progress.. but I worry that means for me n beth.. I don't like the fact i might have lost or broken some tie that's irretrievable but why would I retrieve it?? ergh.. its conflicting and confusing..
But i suppose it's better than being sad eh, just the next stage of dealing with things I guess.
I've been trying to arrange this meal for saturday with a collection of close friends, everyone said it's a great idea and were all up for it but from the origal 11, 5 have dropped out because of various reasons.. and I've gone to so much bleeding effort trying to sort out a booking at a restaurant that doesn't take bookings on a saturday.
Still it'll be great fun I'm sure and it'll be a nice way of celebrating mine and my friends birthdays.
I've been looking at evening courses for learning spanish.. I've wanted to learn it for a while but the teach it yourself cd's n books don't sit well with me, I prefure learning from somebody.
There's a 10 week course where I go for once a week for 2 hours and it's 100 starting in january so If I've got the spare cash I'm doing it.. I love education, I miss uni, I wish I'd been able to do that masters..
Back to that girl from Friday for a min
.. she had aaawesome tatts. It reminded me how much I want my tattoo.. I think for my bday I might splash out if I can find a translator originally I was going to wait a few months before I had abit more savings n stuff. But I don't want anything for my bday or christmas because my mums redundant and she needs all the money she has so if I can treat myself I might
get the translation so when I do have more cash I can get the tatt.
I want to get "my" code of chivalry done in Tibetan.. to inspire and remind me, It'll be a shoulder or back peice maybe touching the upper arms (dunno need to talk to the tattooist).
Here's what I want done.. (in tibetan)
Exhibit Courage in word and deed.
Exhibit self control.
Protect the weak and the innocent.
Do not recoil before your enemy.
Always keep one's word of honor.
It's also cold in KY, I think it was about 30F last night.
Well you got to get your crazy times in while you are young hehehehe.
I really can't remember the last time that I kissed a girl, it has been a very long time. Well were you thinking that you and the ex were going to get back together some day? Do you think that you and this new girl may have something?
It really sucks that so many have dropped out, but 5 is still a nice number of people to go to lunch with.
Well that sound fun, I hope you get to do that. I miss uni to, I always think about going back.
Sounds like a really cool idea for a tattoo, I hope you can get it done.