I'm really really upset right now. And it's over one of those stupid things you can't help but feel upset about. And I'm still running low from last night's crap with Adam.
But...
My best friend is going to Europe with this other girl (my best friend is a boy, just so everyone is up to speed). It just really hurts that he wouldn't even TELL me, I had to hear it through the grape vine, and that he wouldn't ask me to go with him, especially when he knows I've always wanted to go to Europe, and we've talked about going together before. I don't understand at all.
I just feel really replaced.
People always ask me why I don't have friends, or try to make new ones. It's because the people that you trust and love go out and replace you, and don't even bother to inform you.
Last night I was thinking I was done with relationships, and right now I'm thinking I'm done with friendships. It's easier to just feel alone all the time, then feel like this once in a while. I like monotony.
And it's so strange. Normally I'd just want to throw shit and be pissed, but right now I just want to curl up in a ball and not talk to people for a very very long time.
I don't think humans are social beings. I think we're supposed to be independent. If we were social beings why would we hurt each other and replace each other so easily?
But...
My best friend is going to Europe with this other girl (my best friend is a boy, just so everyone is up to speed). It just really hurts that he wouldn't even TELL me, I had to hear it through the grape vine, and that he wouldn't ask me to go with him, especially when he knows I've always wanted to go to Europe, and we've talked about going together before. I don't understand at all.
I just feel really replaced.
People always ask me why I don't have friends, or try to make new ones. It's because the people that you trust and love go out and replace you, and don't even bother to inform you.
Last night I was thinking I was done with relationships, and right now I'm thinking I'm done with friendships. It's easier to just feel alone all the time, then feel like this once in a while. I like monotony.
And it's so strange. Normally I'd just want to throw shit and be pissed, but right now I just want to curl up in a ball and not talk to people for a very very long time.
I don't think humans are social beings. I think we're supposed to be independent. If we were social beings why would we hurt each other and replace each other so easily?
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it probably has nothing to do with you but with their relationship.
you are definaly due a couple of good days by the cosmos
look forward to them