Alright guys, I'm not quite sure what happened, but I find myself being a much kinder, thoughtful, and generous person than I used to be. I find myself embrasing opportunities to make people happy because it makes the world a better place. Not to mention it gives me a sense of self fulfilment to know I make the effort to be an advocate of loving your fellow man. I've been loosely following Buddhism ever since my trip to Thailand in the winter. The temples held for me such a place of energy, peace, and serenity. If I had respect for them before, it was increased tenfold by my experience.
I used to be such a bitter and selfish and angry person. Its taken years of conscious effort for me to pull away from such negative and destructive behaviour. I could see the people around me judging me for my attitude which only added to my frustration. I couldn't blame them however, it must have been hard watching a person hurt themselves like that. But somehow, especially in the last year, I've learned to let go of my hate and anger and learn the value in kindness. Now, I'm putting more effort into speaking to and complimenting my friends, fans, and family. They deserve more than me ignoring their efforts to communicate in favor of more introverted hobbies.
I guess I'd just like to say that I appreciate how far I've come today, looking back on how I was half a human being. I'm finally happy feeling like I'm doing the right thing for myself and the people I touch in life.
Much love
Namaste
