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dont EVER ask me to do something for you again... even more so if you are going to fucking run me right into the ground after doing every little fucking stupid ass thing asked of me.

im not here for your convience... im here because i fucking love and care for you... though lately youre acting as if im just the girl that lives with you and is here to supply you with rides and back rubs...

THERES MORE TO ME THAN THAT ASSHOLE!!!!!!

if youre just going to take advantage of me then let me know now because i wont stand for it any longer. im not here for your pleasure... im here to be with you, help you, take care of you and love you... not to be your bitch ass slave.

you tell me that i need to change my annoying and loud ways... well you have things to change too! and whats the point in me changing if youre never home to notice the change taking place? why am i doing this? cause its not for my own ammusment. im doing these things for you... things youve asked of me...

you get mad and think that im acting out when i get a little crazy sometimes... its like the same with a small child. when mom and dad ignore them they act out... whether it be bad or good... they act out so mommy and daddy will notice... i want you to notice me! honestly thats why i act out sometimes. in hopes you'll notice me.

i know theres a piece of you that cares. just because you dont show it doesnt mean that i DONT know its there... i KNOW that its there... i saw it on sat. night. when you got mad i was being hit on... you obviously care. if you didnt you wouldnt have cared less that i was being hit on. when i talk to my guys friends (and yes i admit i get a little flirty but i mean nothing by it) you get mad... but i dont want youre negative attention. i want your positive side. i never used to act out or piss you off when you took notice in me.

im not asking for your time 24/7. but it would be nice to hangout with you more then just once every 3 weeks. you spend EVERY wakeing moment with your friends and your band. yes i understand you have practice. but you can come home after practice. you dont have to stay there all night getting drunk... ignoring me... then coming home and asking for a back rub and rolling over going to bed.

I DONT WORK THAT WAY!

i want my old man back. not this new man. you were something special to me. but about a month after Germany... now that youve been working at the one place... youve been a sexiest, pigheaded, bastard. YOURE NOT LIKE THAT! i know this. ive spent time with you in the past. you let OTHERS under you influence you in ways THEY shouldnt.

so either take notice in these issuses and changes... or if not then stop asking these things of me. theres no point if youre not watching.
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on that note. if anyone has anymore questions about the photoshoot for the band. i have taken myself off of this project for personal reasons. i apologize. HOWEVER... if you still wish to do the shoot (which keep in mind you wont get paid but you might get cash for gas and you will be required to wear a thong and or boyshort undies) then please contact the band personally. i wont post contact information here. BUT if you want it then please dont hesistate to message me and i will give you all the info you need to talk to them.

again i apologize for this. but like the post before this one and this post, i am fucking SICK of helping people and getting nothing in return. not even a thank you, or getting the run around from the ones asking for my help.

im not saying that the band themselves are bad people. they arent. they are some of the nicest people and most amazing people i have met in a while, and i am thankful to know them. i would just rather keep away from that piece of drama and the lack of organization thats been going on with this shoot. i feel like the bad guy when all you girls message me and i have yet to get a current update on this damn shoot. its starting to make me look unprofessional and i dont like to look that way when it comes to me working on a project.

so again... to all the lovely girls that messaged me about this i apologize and if you want go ahead and message me again if you are still interested and i will give you thier contact info. im sorry for any inconvience this may bring, but its been a huge burden on me to be asked to do something and when i do it the people that ask it of me dont give me details that i can give to the models.

i hope you all understand why im doing this. again i apologise for this. i know this is a hassle to both you ladies and myself.