Right know i am going to pretend. I am going to pretend that i am not going to cry myself to sleep. pretend that i dont love him. i am going to pretend that i dont feel like this. playing pretend had never been so hard. its never hurt so much. all i want to hear is that he cares. I want him to say it. i dont care if its just as a friend. I just want to know that i am something to him. i feel like nothing right now. i feel so worthless.
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I hope you are okay, I wish I could offer better words of sympathy.