faye

I don't want to live today.

Not in a horribly depressed I want to slit my wrists kind of way. More in a I really just wish I could fast forward through this whole day and move on with my life. I lived through enough this month that really I just want to sleep the rest off.

I simply don't have time for everyone who wants to be in my life or everything that I'm suppose to do. I feel a little bit guilty about that and a lot "fuck you" about it.

I find it strange that as you get older and you learn more and more about yourself, what you need as a person in order to keep yourself balance and healthy and whatnot that it limits you in ways. That's not a good thing or a bad thing more just an observation.

Right now I just want a day to myself, to bath and pamper, sleep and read and not talk to anyone at all. Have no one call me regarding my day job or my other jobs...I just want to be silent.