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In other news.....

it's an Ashanti nite tonite for no reason at all.

I've been taking pictures all day, I let a friend take some of me and they are kinda horrid. She gave me rocker make up and make me wear this f-ing pink dress. Which is so her, just not me. If I end up liking a couple I MAY show you.

I took a ton of her, hers turned out better I think, the ones from today are super cuteness.

I'm still taking pics now....seriously this weekend is all about me, sleep, photos, sketching, movies, lost, sandman....

The diet starts Monday and it's needed. I'm gonna do my best to run everyday as well. I'm going to suck at it since I haven't been into it since MTL but I'm huge and that needs to change. I was Fatter, then Thinner, and now FAT again. Ugh. I totally wish I had a body that could just chill out and stay one weight for an amount of time.

I think I may fast and cleanse out my entire system. Honestly, I think it would help, get everything out and start fresh. Plus I know that I'm on the verge of being addicted to certain things if I'm not already which really needs to change. I think 5-10 days with wake me up a bit.

Still, with me as always things are uncertain everything is uncertain. I am never on the same page as anyone else. While I'm thinking one thing it seems that they are constantly thinking another. I fucking hate this site because sometimes I can log in completely happy and then I see something or am sent something and I leave pissed off or sad which obviously is the case tonight and has been for most of this week.

So....more Ashanti, more pictures, more sleep....and now...a whole fucking lot of vodka.

fuck you