faye

In January I'm totally changing my hair.
It needs to happen it's been far too normal for far too long and I'm sick of it.
I also need to start running again, I'm so out of shape and my body is unhappy and I'm kinda unhappy with her.
She needs to be tighter and firmer and cuter than she is right now.

I need money.
It's the biggest piss off in the world to not get paid on time then have to pay countless bank fees because the money that SHOULD have been there to cover bills isn't. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. I'm pissed.

I played hooky from work today, and I'm going to do it again on New Years so I can go to Detroit one day earlier.
Plus I don't really have an excuse for today so I can't really show up then and be like YAY let's sell some dildos.

Too much is going on in my head. Too much drama in life lately things change every fucking ten minutes living in this house. I'm not one for drama, my life has enough drama in it without me or any of the people I'm surrounded with creating more.

I need to win like a thousand dollars...just to get caught up and be ok for a little while. Money = stress no matter if you have if or if you don't. All I know is that my fucking trip better still be able to happen or else for real I'm going to kill someone.

I can't wait to start my new job so that my standard of living can be what it was. I haven't had money for like a year....honestly. I need so much stuff right now that I just couldn't afford and I am so excited to get. And it's retarded because it's the simplest shit EVER, like new underwear. I AM SO MOTHER FUCKING EXCITED FOR NEW UNDERWEAR. Not frilly extra special underwear but just plain everyday boyshort underwear. And! PANTS THAT FIT! HOLY CROW!!! I cannot wait for new jeans that wont fall off my ass. And new socks...cause for real most days my socks don't fuckin match. hahahahahahahahaha How ghetto am I for real?

This is the most random journal ever....I'm going to shower and think about my lovah lovah and how I get to see him in THREE DAYS!!! And then I'm going to do my hair, and go to the drug store and.....who the hell knows what else.