Everything is beginning to take on a green hue. I really think I'm going to hell. Right now my family is in church praying to the absentee landlord while sit here fucked up on absinthe. For some reason The Decline is playing. I'm beginning to think my WinAmp knows when i'm fucked up and plays this on purpose. My mom woulsd say i have the devil in me. How appropriate as I quite literally have the Green Devil in me. There is so much i should say but can't find the words. I started to put another wound on my chest but stopped.Had the blade in my hand and everything. It would be beatiful for sure but it would upset her, so I didn't. Rarely does anyone make want to be a better person. Most just make me want to give mankind a beating.What an awesome quote, "We know the truth but prefer lies. Lies are simple. Simple is bliss. Why go against tradition when we can admit defeat, live in decline, be the victim of our own design."