Had band practice today... got really drunk while practicing. I dunno what happened. It was probably the fact that I had almost nothing to eat all day. I haven't gotten drunk in a little while too. I forgot how depressed you can get afterward if you don't drink till you pass out. I was having a blast with the guys until I went home alone. I really miss Jasmine. A lot. What makes me feel even worse is that I just really miss having someone there. Just having someone to sleep next to. Someone to put your arm around, a hand to hold, a hip to squeeze. Someone to say goonight to while your heads are on the pillow. I really miss spooning too. One of the greatest things in the world has got to be spooning. I love it. And I miss it. I guess what I'm getting at is that I actually miss physical contact. I guess I'm a fairly physical person who likes to give hugs and what not. Lately, I haven't had anybody around to hug or to hold. I need some squeezin!
