fascistprincess

The Girl- Sarah. My name as well.

Again with the writing and editing due to the way I thought I may have sounded and feeling oddly self-concious about it.

[Edited on Apr 04, 2004 6:28AM]

Hmmm... this was the most interesting response, I have read, by far, on This site. As for my deleting the question following the initial one, yes I was indeed a bit self-concious about the way I sounded. I was under the influence when i wrote it, and reading it again I didnt like the way I made myself sound, or how i thought i may have sounded. I didnt think you had read it, therefore I deleted it, thinking my intitial [full] questions would be unread. I don't blame you for questioning my behavior. I certainly would too, (if i so decided to put much thought into it, which you did or didn't) As for my 'obvious' mallebility I hope you mean in the sense that I am easily able to adjust to changing circumstances ( In a way that, I , myself, won't neccesarily agree with others, but would rather not object, given a certain circumstance.). Not that I am too easily shaped into anothers ideals. I am almost positve you have read my posts on this site in the past, which may have led you to believe this. Indeed i am not gullible, and I DO want my eyes opened. It just has yet to happen. Easily excitable?? No...Once upon a time maybe... I AM bitter, and depressed, solitary, reclusive, and confused. Of course these are the negative traits that i am focusing on right now. Because that is how I am feeling at this point in time. Quick to be loyal to a certain possibility??
Most definitely. This within itself had made me vulnerable. I'm glad that you enjoyed how i looked. Because I too often times do not enjoy how I look to myself. Which could easily be beautiful or horrible, all in the same day.

Arab Nationalism...No, because i am not all too familiar with it. BUT I would be more than willing to learn about it.( In comes my loyalty)
Perhaps not from you, but on my own account, and yes {merely because it was suggested}.
As for putting Lebannon as my home.... My father is both Lebonese and Syrian. And thus, I want to relate to my heritage ....even it means putting that as my home on an a porn website, for all to see and question....(You and one other were the only ones that did though)

Go easy on me, for i was in a haste writing this, and didnt take alot of time to respond...

I've forgotten, Why did I add you?? Why did all the others?? Because you write beautifully, and I look forward to seeing your responses in the future.

Edited for grammar errors. There may still be more though...








[Edited on Mar 18, 2004 7:14PM]

Thanks. I didn't think you were rude, whatsoever. Thanks for the site. I'd definately be interested in reading some short stories. My dad wasn't born in Lebannon, but my Grandma was. I've never been either. I worked with a Lebonese man a few years ago named Fayez, and he told me that the Lebonese were quite hospitable to Americans(I'm not sure he used that term specifically). I would like to visit sometime.....Coincidentally, I also live in Colorado.

[Edited on Apr 04, 2004 6:29AM]

I feel as if nothing changes enough for me to think that I should decide that I should think differently about things that shake my skull and twirl fear around my blood-strings zig-zagging/criss-crossing/spiraling up and down my limbs heavy with the disease of tired. I do not like to feel bad, it bothers my every day, but it is often and still may have tinges of beauty.

Ugh...Hope you feel better...
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