fancyultrafresh

i seriously want to scream.

i didn't get anysleep last night because my dog was crying the entire night. she was throwing up everywhere and couldn't even lay down. towards the end, she started throwing up blood. my baby is dying.

we took her to the vet this morning and she has to stay there all day in a cage by herself until they can "fit her in." that's bullshit!! my dog is dying and stupid fat old ladies who make appointments to get their dogs nails trimmed get to take their dogs in and have the vet see them before they will look at daisy, who is probably so scared. she hates the vet and she hates cages and last night he was in her own home and was still scared.

the trip to the vet made me late for work, which is a price i'm willing to pay to make sure that my dog is ok. BUT on the way to work, i got a speeding ticket. which i can't afford to pay unless i cancel my trip to texas, which was like, the highlight of my summer. i was so upset and pissed about everything that i started smoking non stop on the way to work, and then i dropped my cigarette on my leg and it burned me. and then it burned the seat.

and i wouldn't even be late if i could work at the westport store, less than ten minutes from my house. but no, i have to drive 30 minutes to the metcalf store every morning to sit at a stupid fucking computer all day long. and i'm fucking hungry but i forgot my lunch.

i know i'm slefish for saying this, because there are so many people out there who are watching their family/friends die, and not their dogs. little kids are dying from starvation and i am just hungry.

but right now, i feel like shit and i hate the world.