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aaahhh, jeez, I can't sleep and all I want is beef jerky and chocolate. WTF ???
My sister is in town this weeked. It is always nice to see her, she is my blood sister and the one I am closest too. I have 5 other step sisters, who are all cool in their own right, but my big sister Candace has known me since I was in the belly, and we are connected. We couldn't be more different. I like it mostly quiet, she likes it loud. She is short, loud mouthed, big titted, and absolutely gorgeous. She also has this vivacious get to know you personality. I have never been able to be best friends with people the second I meet them. I am way too picky and internal for that type of sometimes shallow, yet personable interaction.
We went today to get my nipples pierced. Ouch and Hell yeah !!! I love how they look and am so pleasantly suprised that the pain is minimal. I was prepared for 3 months of agony every time I moved, yet tonight at work I didn't even think of it once....
well I was too busy thinking about other things, fighting down this overwhelming feeling of panic. I almost lost it tonight during service. I was working grill by myself, setting plates, do my sauces, veg and everything else. Panic welled up, and the harder I fought it down the stronger it became. I hate feeling like that !!!! I kept trying to stay calm, and then boom fucking lamb overcooked, fucking dropped my saute pan, which had veg I needed, like yesterday......
Vicious cycle. I am so glad I am off tomm. Chef and I got into last night. He rolled his eyes at me for something, and I being an idiot spout off and say "I can't fucking believe that just happened".. his eyes almost popped right out of his skull. Fucking drama !! I am over it. We worked it out though, he told me that I need to be more confident and not let my emotions take control of my performance, he said, 'you got what it takes sweetheart, have faith in what you can do' and then I panic tonight!!!
WTF ??

Yeah WTF??

mmmm beef jerky and chocolate....no way I am leaving the house right now, couple crown & gingahs made sure of that

and yeah while I am thinking of it....WTF...I got my nipples pierced today !!!
I am awesome !! I got horizontal bars. My piercer was the coolest, we were cracking jokes the whole time about the strippers who worked upstairs to the place. We could hear them clunking around the whole time. He called them the "camel patrol" I was laughing so hard. One of the servers gave me this t-shirt the other day, it says "Camel Toe (insert Camel logo ) - Genuine Taste" I love it. I sleep in it all the time. I wouldn't wear it out though, I get enough strange glances as it is, inviting them I'll save for something truely obnoxious.

WTF ??? Why is gas so gaddamned expensive. I don't know what it is like around the country, but ATL is over $2.50 and damn I drive over a hundred miles some days. Really sukks !!!

I also have a nasty little habit with ebay right now. I am absolutely dreading my CC bill next month. Although I got my Porsche 301 Sontaku Knive today. Absolutely beautiful, sharp and sleek. A welcome addition to the collection.
and then I add in the tank tops, summer is round the corner, the 3 paintings and other misc crap I purchased recently..EEEKK !!! This is coming from the girl who would rather crawl, naked, starving and dehydrated while carrying a sack of potatoes through shattered glass for 1000 miles than set foot in the mall....

Thank you to all the kind words I have received recently!!!!

I never expected Suicide Girls to become such a haven, and it is all because of the beautiful naked girls and the beautiful and intriguing people who like to look at them. THANK YOU !!!

Tomm is no work day and I plan to eat sushi and get drunk with my sister. Everybody have a rockin Thursday!!!!