fallingvictim

i am sick of people lying to my face because they think it is going to make me feel better!

where is the fucking truth!?!?

Fearfully runnning about your day. Doubting the love that you have received. Looking back to the one's that have only missused your heart and taken all of it's passion for granted. Feeling like their is no one else to love, that love itself has pushed you away. You see only lies, you see the outcome of what is false made true.

Thankfully running about your...
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you have turned my heart inside out. i do not play games.
Current mood: uncomfortable


a friend made a quote to me the other day. this little phrase that bursted forth from his mouth hit me like the realization i have cancer. i started to ponder the things i have learned and i am learning. i look back and see how missguided many of my...
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life has new meaning, i am no longer letting my life be ruled by want i feel. i am creating more than ever! i am growing up.......

what i have been writing, going through and feeling...

why run when you can push? you won!
Current mood: creative


i wish i could keep writing in some code. in some self-made language that leave's everyone guessing and hoping for some moment of clarity. life is not so, simple truth's are the things that are life. realizing someone's downfall's, what make's them tick, the things...
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we danced in a style your mom warned you about...
Current mood: drained

searching, searching for something to fill the time.
i wonder from tent to tent filling my time with ear candy.
no contact to the other world, no options of travel.
solitude is bliss when surrounded by ten thousand stragers.
my mind wonder's and wonder's about you.
i am hiding under a shell...
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don't look in the shallow.
Current mood: hot

it is a beautiful day, clouds are on the horizon.
the air is clean, my lugs begin to fail.
i hear the chirping of baby birds, my ears are filled with screams.
my love is in my arms, she is thinking of someone else.

a day begins at a race, filled with the expectations of glory.
the...
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i'll show you....


awaking to a new day when all is uncomfortable. following something that you know you can not trust. taking a journey to fullfill a pleasure that will pass. how far will i go to find you. what must i do for it to come through? nothing has settled this cloud over my head. nothing has brought peace to the torment. but in...
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the uncomley are not safe!

i am mesmerized by your magic box that hands me gift's of no merit. you preach your message of restraint that offers freedom. your ploy coheres the ignorant into a self indulgent mentality that leads to ruin. distracting them with meaningless signs and wonders. go on and use us, gain your money, gain your power.

i will not yield to...
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this treasure that i long for ....

i waited and waited, i thought i could wait no longer.
i searched out for the right gift to myself,
i searched for something worth.
the path took me to a place never seen before,
a place that only few dare to go.
i thought i had found the treasure i sought,
but along with the others, they...
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