Cryptic Version of You:
you made me feel alive again but in a way that i have never liked. i have been this way for a while, nothing earnest, just by the moment. then for a spilt second it changed, i fell into the past. i forgot about the present and what i have taught myself and dove in because of peer pressure from hope. see hope has been my best friend for a long time but from time to time, like most friends, he let me down. and that of course is when i dive in and hope has drained the pool!
so hope decided the other day to drag my beating and weathered body out of the pool and drive me to a dentist. the novocain was delightful. it filled my nostril's floating down into my lungs to give me a dream of utopia. now most every time i have called upon the dental surgeon to repair my brokeness it has been a pleasant meeting. this time was different. the wounds were still fresh but few in numbers. normally i wait until at least i injury myself three or four times in the same pool before acquiescing to the recovery with hope.
no this time was different, i jumped in and could not really decide why i did. there was something about this pool, something that made me want to jump in and see if it would hurt. cause honestly, on the surface this pool looked like it could have been different. it seemed that although it was a newer or should i say younger pool, it still has a certain maturity to it that most did not. i mean even the size of the recreational area was almost exactly what i like and want.
but i was delusional, i was betrayed by my very own heart battling it out with my mind. trying to find an excuse why i did what i did. debating with myself trying to find out why i still want to return to this delightful plunge of torment. all in all it is still the same, you should never get attached to any one concrete bowl. cause just like most illusions of grander, this one promised hope and delivered dishonesty and disappointment. i think this one was scared to reply, she does not know what is really inside, the potential!
i need water......
you made me feel alive again but in a way that i have never liked. i have been this way for a while, nothing earnest, just by the moment. then for a spilt second it changed, i fell into the past. i forgot about the present and what i have taught myself and dove in because of peer pressure from hope. see hope has been my best friend for a long time but from time to time, like most friends, he let me down. and that of course is when i dive in and hope has drained the pool!
so hope decided the other day to drag my beating and weathered body out of the pool and drive me to a dentist. the novocain was delightful. it filled my nostril's floating down into my lungs to give me a dream of utopia. now most every time i have called upon the dental surgeon to repair my brokeness it has been a pleasant meeting. this time was different. the wounds were still fresh but few in numbers. normally i wait until at least i injury myself three or four times in the same pool before acquiescing to the recovery with hope.
no this time was different, i jumped in and could not really decide why i did. there was something about this pool, something that made me want to jump in and see if it would hurt. cause honestly, on the surface this pool looked like it could have been different. it seemed that although it was a newer or should i say younger pool, it still has a certain maturity to it that most did not. i mean even the size of the recreational area was almost exactly what i like and want.
but i was delusional, i was betrayed by my very own heart battling it out with my mind. trying to find an excuse why i did what i did. debating with myself trying to find out why i still want to return to this delightful plunge of torment. all in all it is still the same, you should never get attached to any one concrete bowl. cause just like most illusions of grander, this one promised hope and delivered dishonesty and disappointment. i think this one was scared to reply, she does not know what is really inside, the potential!
i need water......
steller:
hiii! how are you?