fallenshadows

I keep flowing through every day life bumps. So many things I let destroy my mind to which I should never allow. I questioned today why truely I care so much about every thing which matters so little. I keep getting destoryed slowly by everything around me, I am loosing so much faith. Even nature I question the wrath of. I have been blessed to not see the rain of which past years have brought this town, but that doesn't make all that has happen leave my mind. I feel so dearly to go traveling some more, finding a new place to be, being with someone new, but alas I am here and so I will be. I am still awaiting that special someone, but am quickly loosing faith from which hard times have given me little of. Day to day I keep wandering, I want to push into life so much harder than I already am, but I need guidence. I need a place to go a place to be. If someone has found that place, please do invite me there. I want to morn no more. I want things to be better, but I almost think I am trying to hard. I need guidence for which..this time I may ask of. I lead my life completely wanting to do everything on my own. Take hand outs from nowhere and no one, but now I question if I have done it wrong all along.