fallenglory

I've made the decision that I will be happy with my life. I will be happy with my choices and I will be happy with myself. I may not always do or say the right thing, but I feel. And I feel everything. Maybe that's a bad thing to some people. Maybe it should be a bad thing to me, but I'm sick of looking at myself and not liking what I see. The way I see it is my first step is to like myself regardless of my flaws and maybe, just maybe in doing so I will adjust the way I see other things in time.

I'm sure most people aren't aware, but earlier this year I came to the realization that I likely have PMDD. For those of you that don't know what that is, feel free to look it up. I've been following my cycle for months now and there is definitely a pattern with my cycle and my moods, stress levels and how I react to all of it. It's a hard thing to deal with and can be truly debilitating at times, but I'm so tired of it all. I've tried changing my diet, taking vitamins and now it's time to try to change my mind. On the really bad emotional days, it's hard to stay focused on the positive. I have started practicing the law of attraction.. not to gain material things, but peace of mind. I'm not even sure I'm doing it right according to "the rules", but I'm doing what hopefully will work for me. I need to get out of this. It's been a part of me since puberty, though I didn't see the cycle in it's entirety

Anyway, this blog has become a lot longer than I intended and frankly, I only intended to type it up and just delete it...just to get it off my chest. Take it as you will. Care. Don't. It's all good.