fallenangyl

Most of the time when something breaks you can fix it..
You just pick up the peices and glue them back together.
After that its as good as new, or almost new.

But there are other times, that when something breaks...
it shatters..
And no matter how hard your try to pick up the peices
& put them back together again, you cant.
You can't fix it, cant glue it back together, it will never ever be fixed.
So the only thing you end up doing is hurting yourself over and over again......



i miss the boy i fell in love with, then one who made me feel special, like there was no one else in world for him. everyday was warm and fun and there were no worries and no heart break. and there never would have been.... but sadly he died... (and sometimes i feel like it was my fault). At least thats what i tell myself.. because thats what usually happens to someone when theres no way in hell you can ever have them back, isnt it? They die because if they were alive, then theres always a chance.

So to you My Dear [boy] i want to tell u that i loved you the most. and i morn everyday that i do not have you. and morn the days that i will never have you again. i dont want to let those memories go.. those were the only days that i really ever felt loved by anyone. i keep holding on thinking that they will magicaly come back. i dont want to admit that they wont because that would be admitting that i am alone.

will you ever come back? should i wait for you? should i hold on to those memories that feel so good?

or is it time to move on? am i secretly keeping myself from feeling that way again? should i try to find someone else, a new friend, who might make me feel the way you did?

i miss you... i need your advice..