fallenangel8183

I'm getting really down lately. I got into a car accident on Friday night and my car was demolished. I am also out of my softball league for the summer because of the damage done to my left leg in the accident. To top it all off, when I got out of the ER and had a chance to get to the lot that my...
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Hi, I just wanted to let everyone know that my URL on MySpace was hacked..I cannot sign in...so please don't try to add my name etc...because it isn't me. Thanks..

Much Luv, Kat

I'm new to SG, sorry for the late hello! But, I just wanted to say hi to all the guys and gurls on the site. Also, *maybe i'm stupid* ..but I'm trying to put up "my fav pics" of the suicide girls and I can't figure out how to do it. I definitely have a lot of favorites, could someone help me out with that?...
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I think i'll write my brother a letter tonight. I miss him a lot, I just can't think of everything I need to say in such a short letter. I feel guilty for not visiting him lately. I don't know what my problem is really. I guess it is just upsetting not being able to hug him or hold him. I hate seeing him confined....
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*The Fury Within*

From a well deep within me
the pressure comes...
this boiling,
explosive hate,
raging from the inside
frantically spilling over
into my life-
disturbing the calm
that has masked
such pain,
shattering the smile
that has hidden
such anguish.

Like lava from a dormant volcano
it rises,
surging to the surface
with unrestrained fury-
destroying the false,
pristine peace...
enveloping all things...
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*Exodus*

Get up! Fight!
I should. I was running.
I thought I was free.
But the fiery wind caught me,
stopped me, and burns me now,
howling from Hell.
I scream, rage back
at the chaos running through me.
I hate it out here,
unprotected and glaring.
Let me crawl back
to my clammy dark tomb
where the howling just hummed
me to purgatory sleep....
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*Dear Anorexia*

I wonder about you a lot.
And though we speak often..
It's never in depth
But rather a brief feud that you usually win.
I wonder about your childhood, anorexia
What sort of a child were you?
Were you picked on?
Or were you the one who picked on others?
Maybe your childhood was like mine.
Were you abused, were you sad?
Or...
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*Never Ending Rain*

You had to go and that is understood.
Things just weren't right here for you.
The feeling you have given me
Has left me alone, standing alone.
I'm almost certain that you can see.

During your absence it has given me time
To think of ways I can escape this.
To run away from the pain.
Nothing ever seems to work
It's...
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*Not The Prisoner*

Asphyxiated by a chemical reaction of emotions,
The bitter taste of bile is a memory, in the blurred wonderment of my being.

And I am not the prisoner,
I am not the victim.
I am not the indifferent invisionment of impotent emotion.
And I am slave to no force.
I am destined to no foreseen fate.

I am a mind of intelligence...
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*The Other Side Of Fear*

What does it take to make you shut up?

But .

Fear, I know you. My strength in disguise. Unused. Neglected and Angry.

Shhhhh, Fear.... I know you're hurting. I know you need me and my attention. I need you too. Remember what you really are - - My Courage. My Heart. My Honesty screaming for attention.

We don't have...
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*Dementia Paradox*


Write, slowly, the repugnant words in my skin with mauve, blistered lips.
Rive my flesh with your malicious demeanor and
immerse yourself in my anguish.

The cutting edge of the blade slews heedlessly across my stained cerise skin.
I hold my breath with each carved word, as I listen to the faint thrum of my heartbeat, quicken.
I open my mouth to take...
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